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meh im ok. kinda. how are you/

Thank you, you’re the only one on here that has said happy birthday, nice to know how much my fans love me!!!

I have had a great day though :)

guess u left anyways some other time. take care.

i am on my other fb if you wanna have a little chit chat or we can talk here as you wish.

hey there sorry i was on my real fb, saw your shout late….was talking to family there, how are you doing?

I know what you were saying, I was only pulling your leg :P what have you been keeping yourself busy with the past few days? :)

Bird? :/ I thought I was a cat…

Indeed they are :) music does a lot but it can’t give a person the required skills to dance *well* :P

Hey :) I’m not that good a dancer haha :P I would love to learn every type of ballroom dance there is, it seems so elegant. Probably wouldn’t be as elegant if I had to try it though ^^ I feel a lot calmer now than I have been, I got very stressed out and my mom helped me out of that awful state.

“You have a friend in me” reminds me of the movie Toy Story, it reminds me of a song in it. My favourite movies are my childhood animations. Bambi (my favourite), Cinderella, Pocahontas, Beauty and the Beast… I love them. Oh and the lion king is also great, my second favourite. If I have a kid one day, I’m going to have them watch those movies, none of the new crap, there’s nothing meaningful in movies anymore (I say ‘if’ because I don’t know if I’m able to have - can only know once I’ve tried lol). I only watch documentaries now and the odd love story. And then I have series, but I forget about them. The only one I get excited about is The Vampire Diaries, most people watch it for the 2 main male actors, but I couldn’t care less. Its the only thing i can watch when I’m miserable. When I was with the other ass of a guy, I went to my mom’s house when we fought and I would stay up all night on a weekend just watching it, the show is 40 minutes long and there are 22 episodes in a season :P I don’t get excited easily. When I do I look like an idiot. And I get excited about VD no matter how dumb it may seem.

dinner was already cooked, just had to eat, mom had it already i was left wasn’t feeling hungry before.

I think that there isn’t enough space for all my frowns. And noone talks to people who frown. He is so upset with me. I’m starting to hate myself even more.

I bet you already want to stop talking to me. And I haven’t even begun to tell you how I feel :P

And that’s the worst part, i have been told that I make people feel like monsters when they have done nothing wrong. Because I think the worst, but I think that my thoughts could be worse.

That is one of the reasons I don’t like speaking my mind.

Hey Ediee you left from fb :)
how are you doing :)
i am doing fine.

That if I try to smile I’ll feel better or it will become real, something like that. Can’t really remember

Nope, I’m depressed and we’re not talking much because he gets upset when I’m like this. I told him it will pass soon to make him feel better, but I don’t know when it will. But I can still smile if I want to haha, I was trying out what november rain said to me in my other post :P

I am :)

Hey, good thanks, how are you?
I replied to you ok fb.

Thank you Eddie, you are really kind to me and I appreciate that :)

No worries,love speak later. X

i was about to tell you smthing but then u asked me the question…..
India is very sad today had been getting lots of bad news lately regarding our country, but today one of our citizen who was trapped in pakistan’s jail for 23 years, for nothing , he was innocent, pakistan claimed that some prisoners attacked him with bricks and blade and injured him badly that today he died, a whole cry in the country for the innocent being killed this way, pakistan really plays bad.
going to sleep now take care.

I wouldn’t exactly call it turmoil,things have been brewing for such a long time,I’m much better,not on tender hooks all the time.
I won’t be making the first move that’s for sure.

Well, you know you can always talk to me hun.:-)

Hey that’s what friends are for,right. :-)
Your poetry speaks volumes,its good really, I get a feel of your emotions home or away. :P

I’ve had a few ups&downs,nothing I can’t handle. :-)
Still not talking to you know who-no intentions of doing either.

Its not a long email,just asking if you was OK.
Your last poem seemed sad,thought I would check up on you. :-)

Havnt you received the email?

u wanna talk on fb?

and i cant get to know him he lives in canada and i live here and as u know we are not supposed to date…and he is also from my distant relatives.

yeah but my family would never want me finding a guy who has kids.

i just sent u a request on fb. i have two fb’s lol, one for help frnds n other real one which i deactivated today :D

he lives separate as he is going through divorce and all, but i have taken the decision to go for a single guy, he has kids and all i don’t think it is good for me to put myself in trouble.

i have been fine as well, well bit of ups and downs was getting a bit close to a guy who is going through a divorce and has 2 kids staying with his ex wife, we were just friends but i was getting close to him maybe because i am alone, so today i de activated my real fb so that i could cut off contact to think straight for myself. missing him a bit, don’t know about him.

How are you doing Eddiee?

You OK Ed? :-)

And 3 hours later, I let things get to me.

Yes, you could say that I suppose.. I’m hurt now and don’t feel like talking, but I don’t think I’m cut out for a relationship, I think my expectations are too high. There is something wrong with me and there is probably someone out there that is better suited to him, another extrovert that is not insecure or clingy or needy. And a christian so that our beliefs don’t clash. I have noone to discuss religion with, everyone hates talking about it. And he slanders it in a way that hurts. I’ll stop here, because I’m saying too much now. I’m sorry for bothering you

Procrastination I see :P I used to love doing the laundry when I was the one doing it! :D I know I’m crazy for saying this, but I enjoy cleaning things ^^

Well, I won’t be telling you why I should be sad, maybe another day. But I’m happy because I have my cat when I have nothing and honestly, that’s all I really need :)

You deviate the subject of you very well ;) I don’t like talking about myself so much.. I am less than great but not in despair, but I’m still happy even though I should be sad.

Tell me how You are, I ache to know :)

I’m alright thanks, how about you?

Missed you! Hope you’re well :)

Thank you, replied :)

Best to keep it on fb or emails, rather than here.

I understand that, but I don’t think I’m ready for the whole world’s turmoil, I have my own.. And my friends’ and family’s, :P

When I let people in, I usually get hurt. I get attached to people easily which makes things worse for me because I’m emotional. I’ve learnt shut people out better, but still be approachable and friendly. The world isn’t as pretty as I would like it to be, so it’s better to walk with my eyes closed. The things I hear are mostly hurtful, so I’ll keep my ears closed too.

Thank you :)

I close my eyes and ears for the real world. This place seems more real to me. I just decided I will sit if I feel like sitting and I’m happy in solitude. It doesn’t matter if I’m alone anymore. I’ve gotten over the fear of being alone.

Hehe, I have a poem if you want to read it, on my public profile :) I made it a few minutes ago, it’s not the one I wanted to post, that one I will post some or other time.

Hahaha :P don’t wanted to be labelled as “the annoying user”

There are so many on that list already.

But thank you for understanding

Its a challenge to get better. Theres really no effective treatment. Just keep me in your Prayers. Thanks for being friends

Its true. I have lung disease.

What is the rummer?

^^ I appreciate that from you :) I’m going to post another poem soon, not right now though coz I don’t like overwhelming people with too many poems :P

Agreed

Hi Eddiee, keep writing your poems