Mini-Profile
I’m an 18 year old guy. I love music, musicals, I actually perform in them (doesn’t mean I’m gay, for the record, and btw, yes, I read Twilight and liked it. So there. :-P), and pretty much anything else art. If you knew me, you would never think I was depressed, or cutting, or failing every academic class I have (well, you might know failing grades part). Thats why it says “A living Paradox.” I can seem truly happy and carefree, but inside… It’s a painful way to live. And now, you know more about me than most of my friends do, save two. I don’t remember the last time I was really happy. I’m ridiculously oppinionated on some things, and could rant or debate or argue for hours on things. Like school. Worst idea ever. but I’ll save that for another day. :)
Dreams. A part of my life big enough that it deserves mention. When I dream, it’s like I’m someone else. and, to be honest, I’m typically much happier in my dream world, because it’s usually better there. The world is better in my dreams (often), and I’m typically happier as whoever I am in my dreams than I am in real life (not always, though). When I dream, I am totally convinced that I am who I am in the dream, which can really mess with me sometimes, especially in nightmares. Once I turned 18, I realized I had to register for the draft. Within 2 weeks, I had a nightmare where I was a soldier fighting in the Middle East. I looked to my right and saw two men, both like brothers to me, get hit. One lost a leg, the other dropped dead. In all honesty, it was the most frightening, most mindblowing experience I have ever had.
But more often, I have happy dreams. (Flying is the coolest experience ever, by the way). :-)
I attribute my lucid and detailed dreaming in part to my really really REALLY bad ADD.
Anyway, I guess you could call me a pacifist. I think war is one of the stupidest ideas EVER (war and school haha). Even on a small scale, I don’t like violence. I’m kinda big, even for an 18 year old guy, and it makes people want to fight me for some reason. I hate it. I can proudly say I’ve never been in a fight. (I scared a couple guys into not fighting though. That was interesting.)
I’m a pyro. Its fun, I’m not gunna lie. I’ve burned myself all over my arms mostly, but to see the scars, I might have to point them out.
I love helping people. In person is best of course, but its possible over texts, notes, and the internet I’m sure. I love to listen. To people and music. And I will never lie you. (That’s kinda directed to a friend of mine. I told her she was beautiful and she called me a liar. But I love her anyway.) But it applies to anyone else who comes to me for help too.
So if you ever need someone to talk to, I’ll be here. I promise.
Also, I don’t joke with things that are important.
I love kids. I’ve worked for a few years as a counseler at a kids acting camp. mostly 6-8 year olds. They’re cute. :-)
I really miss being a little kid, not having to care about anything. where all that matters is what you got for lunch that day… things like that…
I’ll end this night… early morning of profile updating with the subject of love. Its something I give like its free. And it is. And once I love you, if you’re in pain, no matter how bad you hurt, or what is hurting you, I will help you and I won’t stop until you’re all better. There isn’t enough love in this world or my life. I believe there is no such thing as too much love. A lot of people throw around the phrase about “I’d take a bullet for…” so and so, or whatever. I use it, but I don’t throw it around like its just a phrase. When I say it, I mean it. There are people I would take a bullet for, people I would die for. If I had to choose how I die, I want to die in the place of someone I love. I want them to have an extra chance, I want them to have more time.
And that was seriously my idea even before I read Twilight.
That’ll be all for now I guess.
Where did you grow up?
SF Bay Area
Where do you live now?
Bay Area
What is the highest level of education you have attained?
Just Graduated High School. College is soooooooooooooooooooooo much better.
What subjects did/do you enjoy the most at school?
Anything art, especially music. I took voice, drama, guitar...
What's your favorite sport or sports?
Haha. Don't do sports. not anymore. Acting takes time.
What kinds of jobs have you held? Industries too!
Professional Backseat Driver. I bought the card on a trip.
What hobbies are you into?
Music, singing, dancing, playing, sleeping, acting, helping people...
What causes are you concerned about today?
war, global warming, youth, especially depression among youth
If you claim a political party affliation, which is it?
Comedic.
Which religion (if any) do you follow?
uhhhhh really confusing.
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