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• I wish I was dead and should just end myself but it really doesn’t matter. posted (6 days, 3 hours) ago
  I’m so lonely, so miserable, so tired of everything. Next to nothing is enjoyable to me. I sp…

• ………. posted (1 week, 2 days) ago
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• Someone I really care about lost a friend of thiers and I dont know how to comfort her and im worried people might try to take advantage of her vulnerable posted (1 week, 3 days) ago
  I really care about lost a friend of thiers and I dont know how to comfort her and im worried peopl…

• What am I supposed to do if I am too messed up to even manage to get therapy and my friends are abandoning me? posted (1 month, 3 weeks) ago
  I think its best if i killed myself so I wont be a burden to anyone else anymore. I dont know how t…

• I’ve been crying myself to sleep for quite a while now over love / friend issues and I really do not know how to make it better or if it will ever posted (2 months, 4 weeks) ago
  been crying myself to sleep for quite a while now over love / friend issues and I really do not kno…

• Several months ago I cut myself with an exacto knife that was sort of rusty and it still has a very obvious mark there more than just a scar what do i posted (3 months) ago
  months ago I cut myself with an exacto knife that was sort of rusty and it still has a very obvious…

• Why am I am punished for loving someone so much ? posted (3 months, 2 weeks) ago
  So to have anyone ever want you you have to treat them poorly and be a thinking of yourself over e…

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sum's Top (5) Replies by other users' votes

• (3 votes) When I was 5 years old i gave my 9 year old brother blow jobs and now I feel really dirty.
  

  You were 5… just let it go. It doesnt make you less a virgin at all its actually common enough for kids to do some things like that when they were little and yes siblings too even. You shouldnt look back on it in a bad way. Its just something that happened and you can choose to just laugh it off if you would like. Im not saying that like its a joke, i mean that you can take the stress away thinking how you know and think differently now than you did then. Your a different person. Did you know that your body doesnt even have any of its original parts as it did years ago? Your skin flakes off then grows new, your bones break down and get replaced with new bones, everything in your body is different and so is your mental state. You can either keep looking back on this as a mistake or you can look back at it innocently and know it wasnt who you are and it will never have to define your life in any way. If you cant learn how to deal with it yourself you should seek therapy of sorts to have someone help guide you through the mental process of letting go and dealing with things. You have full control over this and it doesnt have to effect you negatively.
  
  - written 2 years, 9 months ago – voted for by Dragon_Lady, cathetel, ⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿

• (3 votes) How can I end my life?
  

  HOW TO END YOUR LIFE
  
  Die of old age. It never fails to work. Its so awesome, all you have to do is sit back and relax and have fun in the meantime. Amazing isnt it? Good luck and choose no other option of death than this, all others fail and leave you misserable.
  
  - written 4 years, 1 month ago – voted for by unsoshabl, leedarien, C. Wasabi

• (2 votes) This is the map of which counties voted for Obama and
  

  LOL This photo isnt of romney and obama is of bush and kerry
  
  http://usatoday30.usatoday.com/news/politicselections/vote2004/countymap.htm
  
  ralph cant even lie straight.
  
  - written 6 months, 1 week ago – voted for by Pink Freud, ⓘⓝⓚ

• (2 votes) During depression the pain is greater than any actual physical pain.
  

  ive been depressed for years and Im in a way better i guess? But you could always just go to a doctor or psychologist. It really determines whats bothering you. Try excersizing more, eating better, getting out into the sun more and sleeping 7 to 8 hours of sleep a night or if your a teen then it would be 8 to 10 a night. Those things help with depression some.
  
  - written 2 years, 3 months ago – voted for by misscobaea, nxrs.0

• (2 votes) I want to know will i be able to have a baby even if i haven’t had a period?
  

  you getting cured from the anarexia is much more important right now… even if you could get pregnant you shouldnt because the baby will never survive.
  
  - written 2 years, 5 months ago – voted for by V for Anonymous, Shard ^^

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• I wish I was dead and should just end myself but it really doesn’t matter.
  

  She did and does accept me everything about me but shes just impatient at the moment with things going on in her life and she needs physcal comfort and im not there to hold her. So i dont know. All i know is i dont want to go through it again with someone else since its just something i caant recover from and i just want her. If i didnt want her i would have already found someone to take but i just dont like anyone else. There is also a huge chance i will never meet anyone i like again especially considering i am a raremyer briggs personality type that is only 1% of the population and people dont really acept me or understand me easily.
  
  I dont like the people where I live. I dont fit in at all and they jsut arent my type of people and no one my age or even younger is in my area. I dont vibe with anyone well and as far as girls go they are all pregnant here. I live in the woods. I never in my LIFE have been anywhere by myself because of how my family is and how scared i am of them bothering me about things :/
  
  I do like certain things baout me but i dont like that its not enough and im stuck focusing on the bad since i dont know how to change the bad htings that dont feel like me if i dont focus on them.
  
  Its difficult :/ Even my parents are a part of me feeling bad about myself because of how they talk to me and treat me and i tried telling them but they dont listen.
  - written 1 day ago

• I wish I was dead and should just end myself but it really doesn’t matter.
  

  She was proof that someone can be different. Her leaving if she never gives me a chance is proof there is no such thing as a different girl they are all the same and not worth any time whatsoever to go through again with someone else.
  
  I dont even want to think of good things since it doesnt matter if its not enough to be loved and accepted by others. everyone eventually grows to hate me or just leave me since they are sick of me. :/ I dont like thinking of good things of myself because i dont want to be wrong about them and i dont want to feel narcisistic or cocky
  
  Things run through my head so much it never ends anything at all nothing ends for me
  - written 1 day, 3 hours ago

• I wish I was dead and should just end myself but it really doesn’t matter.
  

  [quote Dragon_Lady]getting the feeling they manipulate anything i say into whatever they want so it wont diverge from their views of things so it wont break the mold of how they see things. Which tends to depress me. They said they make therapy for people who normal therapy failed at.
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  I felt that way at first, too.
  
  The truth is, therapy only works if you MAKE it work. It takes…WORK. It’s not just sit on a sofa and spill your worst thoughts; rather it’s work with someone to start making yourself feel better. That means listening to what they are telling you and meeting them halfway. Like any other relationship, a therapy session takes both of you striving toward a middle ground so you can cope with your feelings long enough to start making the changes that need to be made.[/quote]
  
  Hm :/ I usually just have people tell me what to do instead of them going with how i want things. I am afraid of someone trying to control me or just me wasting time.
  
  
  
  [quote alisonrbtl]I know that being in love in a secure relationship can help make your world look very different and give you strength and confidence to make changes or feel in control of life even cope with difficulties far easier.
  But all relationships will have ups and downs and love can be unpredictable at times. If you don’t feel good about yourself and your life and are in a relationship more because you NEED to be in it than you WANT to be in it you do stand a much higher chance of getting hurt. And you know how hard that is!.
  If you can try to focus on yourself and feeling better, with some help you may be able to feel more secure/equal in relationships and see your true value a little better.
  As well as getting all the good stuff from life as well…?
  P.S if you are broken, lets try putting you back together, life can be better with the right help. You’re not on your own.[/quote]
  
  Yeah
  
  I know but im just losing the one i love so much and im the type of person she seemed to make out that shed want but maybe not. No one could love me :/ I dont want it because i need it it i need it because I want it. I wouldnt need it if i didnt want it. I need her because i love her, i dont love her because i need her. get what i mean?
  
  i have nothing to feel beter about… im alone where i live, im misserable, im worthless, im unwanted, unloved. Nothing to love about myself if anything good about me is not enough for anyone to want me.
  
  Im very broken :/
  - written 1 day, 17 hours ago

• Someone I really care about lost a friend of thiers
  

  Thanks ._. *sigh*
  - written 2 days, 23 hours ago

• I wish I was dead and should just end myself but it really doesn’t matter.
  

  [quote alisonrbtl]Do you think your depression is narrowing your views a little, it is normal to feel hopeless or worthless if you’re suffering from depression. With some help maybe you could adjust your views.
  While I know its hurting a lot that you aren’t with the one you want to be with underneath it you’re maybe saying you want to be in a relationship with someone you really love and who really loves you and that may be entirely possible with someone when you get help for the way you’re feeling.
  The helplessnes, not looking forward to anything you shared is normal too but if you see this as part of the depression and something that can be treated you may be able to see your world and your life differently and be better able to make some changes/to feel good and fill your life more with things that really matter to you.
  I understand it absolutely isn’t easy but if you can find it in yourself just to do one thing- get professional help. Once you ask for this the road ahead may be a lot easier than you can believe it is right now.[/quote]
  
  Well thats the thing. Its my views so why cant I stick to my ambitions? I know it can make me feel down but realistically I dont seem to know my odds at all and not knowing is driving me nuts. :(
  
  I’m not sure thats even possible. The girl i love actually dates guys with issues so thats not really whats stoping her i think unless shes just trying to force me to fix some things.
  
  Nothing but real love can fill my void. Everything else is just distractions from the pain.
  
  Yes its not easy :/
  
  
  
  [quote Anonymous]is that all u probelm that you want to be loved?[/quote]
  
  No that is just what i focus on as being most important to me of what i want. There isnt something i can think of that isnt wrong in my life.
  
  
  
  [quote Dragon_Lady]I strongly suspect you have clinical depression. You need to see a general practition doctor who will make sure there is nothing physical wrong, and refer you to a specialist. “Designer of alternative therapies” is another way of saying “for entertainment purposes only”.
  
  If you start thinking about hurting yourself, call for an ambulance. Suicidal thoughts and plans are a medical emergency, and you need immediate medical help.[/quote]
  I think ive gone beyond major depression and into just being plain broken. Psychologists and neurologists never have problem depression to be purely physical its usually thoughts and imbalances are interlinked very closely. Yeah Im not sure what they are but i talked to them since they seemed really helpful and just gave me straight answers but i keep getting the feeling they manipulate anything i say into whatever they want so it wont diverge from their views of things so it wont break the mold of how they see things. Which tends to depress me. They said they make therapy for people who normal therapy failed at.
  
  I havent hurt myself much before.
  
  
  
  [quote justanobody]too many people, including myself, feel this way or similar, it does not always “need to be seen”… most of the times, this screws up someone more than they already were. It sucks because nowadays no one is truly trust-able and its hard to rely on someone to be there for you and help you.. i know.[/quote]
  
  and im sorry you and they do. :(
  
  ive had friends leave me who were trying to help but they just get sick of me even though i do everything to support them in any problem they have and i often solve a lot of problems for them too. >_
  
  
  
  [quote Space Weaver]We all just have these bad periods in our lives. This is just a small part of your life, to test you to see how determined and focused you are. You know it eventually gets better if you wait it out long enough, right? They call these periods ’seasons’ for a reason, because they change.[/quote]
  
  Its been this way as long as i can remember. My entire life really. I only had a very breif period of time where i was happy and that was whenver things betwen me and my firend i like were good it made me close ot being happy and i would be fully happy if i was with her. But im no good :/
  - written 3 days, 22 hours ago

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