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• Love a girl who doesn’t love me
  

  Thanks. I mean, sure, there are lots of girls looking for fun, although even girls like that don’t seem to find me attractive. I don’t know what’s different about me, I just always seem to be that guy that is kinda in the conversation, but if a girl really wants to talk to somebody, it’s not me. Hopefully that does change. Thanks again for everything, hopefully soon I will be able to completely move on from this. Take care yourself as well.
  - written 3 months, 2 weeks ago

• Love a girl who doesn’t love me
  

  Thanks so much for all the help. I really appreciate it a lot. I definitely here what you’re saying about idealizing her. Guys definitely have that problem, and I’ve had it myself before, although she really was the only one I’ve ever felt this strongly about. I am trying to move on, but it’s hard. Hopefully things do change. I just hope I can move past it. I am working on getting a girlfriend somehow, although almost every attractive girl I’ve met already has a BF, I guess that’s how it always is. I just always seem to be the guy that isn’t quite good enough, you know? Not sure why. I am very good at talking to girls, but I just seem to always just be a friend and nothing more. Very frustrating. Hopefully that will change.
  - written 3 months, 2 weeks ago

• Love a girl who doesn’t love me
  

  I really did. I mean, based on the way she acted towards me, and just looking at us separately, I thought I had a shot. I guess not. I mean, of course, when you think she is the most amazing girl in the world, there’s that sense of “she’s too good for me, I won’t really be able to be with her. I guess maybe even though there’s always that thought of it not working out, I didn’t see it as an impossibility. I thought I had a legitimate chance.
  
  You’re right, I couldn’t know. I guess maybe I can’t really think about that now. Although, there were times when I really wondered if what I was doing was right. But like you said, your heart takes control. Of course that’s gonna happen, that’s what love is all about.
  
  You pretty much described it perfectly. I am just sitting here thinking, why me. In the group of guys I usually hang out with, about all of them could have any girl they want almost. And I’m struggling. I don’t know why. I’m not shy, I don’t have any problems talking to people at all. It is very frustrating to have gone through my life so far without ever feeling that somebody else is there for you, and that nobody else has any feelings for you. I really thought that was gonna possibly change, but I guess I have to just get used to the way it was again. I am going to miss her a lot though, I just hope I can get my head clear enough for it not to affect me too much.
  
  I really will try to at least talk to her once in a while, it will probably hurt like crazy, you’re right, but I just can’t stay away. I know if she gets a BF, it will crush me but I have to deal with it. I hopefully will find a girl I can have some kind of relationship with. One thing that’s funny, though, and I’m sure a lot of guys know this, it’s pretty easy to talk to almost any girl, and be pretty flirty, and be pretty funny and smart and whatnot with them, even if they are the hottest girl in the world. But if you really, really love a girl, it makes it so much harder. It’s like everything you know changes. What you said is definitely true, losing a battle to win a war. Right now, that is my last hope. Right now, I think I would give the rest of my life for just one more chance, but I guess somehow I have to detach myself a little bit, but I can’t. I can’t force myself to not love her. I guess she might be that girl that you always wish you had, and it hurts when you think about it. Thanks again for all the good advice and support. Still about 24 hrs to go, I think I’ll know pretty soon.
  - written 3 months, 3 weeks ago

• Love a girl who doesn’t love me
  

  Sorry I screwed up the last few sentences, I thought I change something but I messed it up somehow. I’m sure you get what I am trying to say. Don’t know how to edit replies on here.
  - written 3 months, 3 weeks ago

• Love a girl who doesn’t love me
  

  I figured that when I asked that girl to talk to her, she was going to say something about who was asking. But at the time, it was a risk I was willing to take. I guess maybe it was stupid now that I look back. Makes a lot of sense what you said, after that, every time I see or talk to her is going to be awkward for her. I feel bad that I did that now, and that I didn’t ask any way, I should have, and I knew it. Not entirely sure why I didn’t. I just wish I knew what she felt about all this, if she is annoyed with me, indifferent, or, after all this, idk. I hate not knowing. I just wish I had maybe used my head a little more. I feel like, even though of course maybe it was never going to work out, now, I don’t know cause I didn’t do the right things. I just feel like I was selling myself short now, like I blew it for myself. I know maybe I shouldn’t feel like that but I do.
  
  I just don’t know what I’m going to do now. Obviously, I will never find another girl like her, ever again. Everybody is unique. And I know that I might find somebody I like in the future. But I feel like even if they are perfect for me, they aren’t the same, and I don’t want anything else. I know that this will go away too, but in some way I don’t want it to, like maybe if I don’t let go, it didn’t blow up. Like there’s still a chance. I know this is all stupid and pointless, but I can’t help it. Every time I see a girl and think “wow she’s pretty cute, and seems nice, maybe I should ask her out”, I think of this girl. I think, no, I’m trying to get somebody else. Now I can’t do that anymore, but it’s still hard. Honestly, a month ago, I didn’t think I would be writing any of this. I thought, “for sure, it will work out, I’ve just had bad luck”. I guess not. I can hardly go 20 minutes without thinking of her. I know that I’m pretty poor, and I don’t have a nice car (although I like it), a nice phone, or any of that, but I just know I could make her happy. I know I am not the most popular guy, but I get along pretty well with most people, especially with girls. But with her it was different. A lot of girls, you get that feeling like, “yeah, she’s hot, but that’s about it”, but with her, I could just talk to her about anything, and she seemed to understand. I don’t know what I’m going to do without that. Like I’m sure you have, I’ve met a lot of girls in lots of places, not one has even been close to what she is.
  
  I can still approach a girl and flirt and all that, and be friendly or funny or whatever, but I didn’t really have to do that with her, she listened to me no matter what I said, it seemed. It’s gonna be forever before I can go up to a girl with the honest intention of asking her out because I am interested in a relationship. Right now, that seems like almost never. I can’t watch a soccer game, listen to almost any song, or almost do anything without being reminded of her. I know that happens to everybody, but I just don’t know how I am going to stop that. I guess I am still just barely hanging on to that last thing she said on that last message, where she said don’t worry, she’s not mad. I didn’t really say anything to get a response like that, she just said it. I mean, if I can’t be friends, I feel really bad, cause it seems like she still wants to be, if nothing else. And I don’t think I actually push HER away, I just can’t do that. I mean, I can’t say I won’t continue to talk to her like I did before, just cause I like talking to her. Maybe some day when I have that big house and that hedge fund job, I can try again if she’s still single. I partly feel like even if she did like me, there is the whole money factor. She does happen to be pretty well off, like most of my friends. Even if she didn’t care, I would feel bad. Maybe someday, when I get that hedge fund job, and have that big house and that Aston Martin, I can try again if she’s single. Now I’m just being desperate. All I can do now is pray that something happens in the next 2 days.
  - written 3 months, 3 weeks ago

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