captinprestedg's reply history at Help.com

i thought someone would understand,do u think i’d be asking bout this if i hadnt thought it through?im intelligent and reasonable and extremly open minded!i didnt want a guilt trip just help,nevermind i guess its goodbye thankyou to the people that sounded concerned and much love,i hope you get the help you asked for!!

im not asking anybody to pour it down my throat,an believe me my son is better off without me because he is goig to be used as a weapon against me all his life and i dont want that for him,i have secured a hidden account iv filled with entouchable money(all be it not much) for him when he,s older an written him a 20odd page letter to open when he’s old enough and ready to understand,i love him and despite what anyone says he would be better off with out me,i just want advice on the effects of that ammout of meth!and wat sort of a father can i be with all my crap,no job and a seriously vicious now ex?plus the fact she’s legally stopped me from seeing him by reeling of aload of BS about me being violent and dangerous to the social services?i truley cannot go through this,everybody has a final straw an losing everything again is mine,if i cant get advice then i guess i’ll have to take the risk

someone please please advise me on the methadone,is 1000ml (1mg to 1ml) enough and will i suffer?im such a ccoward:(please im begging someone to help,someone must know,im so deperate

i called the local helpline while i was in crisis ast year an they offered an appointment in 2months to which i responded with an overdose which i ballsed up,even then they just said it was a cry for help and booked me into a self help group which i attetend,but they cancelled on the day and ever bothered to assist me further,iv contacted them multiple times recently only to be offered an appointment for assesment in 3months

well with out sounding ungratefull,i asked for adivce and if anyone can advise please do,i have made up my mind,all i cause is hurt an pain for my self and everyone around me and the world certaily wont stop with out me,in fact it would probably be a better place!i am a reasonable person and im not histerical iv thought this through and i just wanted to know i wont suffer or risk it not working if anyone can help me please do x

all the mental health team here do is see iv had a little fall out with the GF and put it all down to that my mother has begged people to do something,she herself was a mental nurse for 20years untill she became a heroin addict due to her illness(degenerative diesese of the spine)for the pain which i nursed her through,i have no father he left before i was born so it has always been just us but because of our history we get written off,i have severe deppresion(dont we all)OCD,real anger/rage problems to the point of feeling like i have a split personality etc etc,but i have reached my decicion an i need help so i dont ending up in a pool of puke being ill an a vegatable x