I use to inspire people around me to sometime ago, and now im the one asking other people for advise, well i am hopeing to get become a president of some major company soon, I use to have alot of stuff, my dad use to own a big engineering company, but then he went on business trips for 6 months at a time, eventually my mom found out, when she started getting unhappy that he was working too much, she confronted him, so for me it was kinda hard getting use a life, where i had basically everything that i wanted to growing up poor and all alone by myself(by myself meaning, the stuff my brother was doing i wasn’t actually intrested in, like a lifestyle that i didnt want. The only thing that i want now in life is security for hopefully a family i will start someday and that my children won’t go through what i went through in my childhood, to come home to a family that loves you, something worth fighting for. - written 4 months, 2 weeks ago
Yeah well i think i miss family alot also, its been a while. All the people that i am friends with just wants to go out and party, and it really sux, wanting to go and socialise and everybody is drunk, maybe i dont know who i am anymore, i just keep getting thrown around, and eventually just get back up, and try again, but a person only has so much energy. So soo much confusion in my head, and i don’t know if im losing it or just really depressed. im only 22, and ive gone through hell. maybe im busy relapsing and i need to get a fix or something and thats a road that i don’t want to walk again, id rather kill myself then do drugs again - written 4 months, 2 weeks ago