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• it’s a cool but brilliant friday morning here. posted (4 months, 2 weeks) ago
  a year ago, deep in the throws of insomnia, i’d have just gone to sleep a couple of hours ago…

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• The solution to the Avatar issue:
  

  I like that suggestion, Collegeboy. How do we organize to get it done?
  - written 4 months, 2 weeks ago

• Any idea why I can’t change my avatar?
  

  Sillerious, if I learn how to change avatars/put up a different image, I’ll forward the info to you. Thanks for the kind response, by the way.
  - written 4 months, 2 weeks ago

• hi i am suffering from severe depression at the moment
  

  hi, anonymous depressed. i found your post after doing a google search on “i’m so lonely and depressed i can’t do anything anymore.” please don’t be offended by me saying i feel less alone knowing there are others out there who, in their own ways, understand the pain i’m in. thanks for being honest and sharing. to me you do not at all sound “pathetic.” you sound like you’re hurting. a lot. maybe by the time my post is up, you’ll have found something that works for you. i wish i had some advice, but find i can only really offer empathy. it’s always very hurtful to me when, after having begged me for months or years, a close friend finally gets me to divulge some fragment of my depression–which i’ve learned through the years to hide well behind unfailingly bright comments and an unflappable smile–but then gives me the old “life’s not that bad; cheer up!” routine. i feel they haven’t really been listening, or worse, that i’ve become a burden to them. the few whom i’ve opened up to eventually disappear. without exception. who wants to be around a chronically depressed person? like your family, i’d bet, my friends care a lot about me. but it’s simply too great an emotional burden to abide another person’s depression, and self preservation ultimately demands a course tantamount to abandonment. (sorry if that sounds bitter; i mean it to be dispassionate.)
  
  i really just wanted to reach out to share, like others here admirably (to me) have regarding others’ posts on being depressed, that you have a community. i care about you because, being in the hell of depression myself, i can only respect the strength it takes you to persevere, especially in the modern atmosphere of “there’s a cure for that–just take the pills.” i’ve been on literally dozens of psychotropics, and after months of enduring caustic side effects from slowly increasing dosages, end up more depressed than before from a lack of abatement of my depression. drugs are too often ineffective. where does that leave us? talk therapy? cognitive-behavioral therapy? i’ve known too many people who’ve been in therapy for decades, with no appreciable improvement. the only thing, besides giving in to my legal addictions, that has temporarily eased the worst of the pain for me is sharing and being shared with. empathy. knowing others … know. and as if their true knowledge justified sincerity, this frank knowing makes me feel for a short while a little less alone. or more accurately, it makes me feel that others who themselves struggle against the slow but inexorable suffocation that is depression can somersault beyond the typical barriers of race, gender, orientation, religion, social rank, world ideology…to be with me. With–together, not alone.
  
  sorry to write so much… and i don’t mean to trespass on your unique circumstances. but there are those of us who struggle with you against the tyrant depression. and we, therefore, sincerely care.
  - written 4 months, 2 weeks ago

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