jetmoose's reply history at Help.com

[quote doyouthinkyoucouldhe][quote jetmoose]”Who do you look down on most?”

I look down on my mam the most because she messed things up for me real bad last year. and because of her things don’t feel the same between me and the rest of my family and I don’t think it will ever feel the same again. she turned my dad against me which upset me alot and I still sort of miss my dad.
I feel a sort of missing space in me.[/quote]

What happened?[/quote]

alot. too much to say. too hard for me to explain. I’d say I’m abit in articulate. it’s in past posts. I dont dwell on that stuff too much anymore. I’m sort of over it. just feel sort of empty sometimes

thank you, maybe that would be a good idea.
I’m 19, 20 on the 14th this month.

“Who do you look down on most?”

I look down on my mam the most because she messed things up for me real bad last year. and because of her things don’t feel the same between me and the rest of my family and I don’t think it will ever feel the same again. she turned my dad against me which upset me alot and I still sort of miss my dad.
I feel a sort of missing space in me.

“Who do you look up to most?”

I look up to my boyfriend and his mam the most because when things went really messy in my life they were the ones to pick up the pieces and help me

[quote life*is*a*rainbow]can you not renegotiate your hours of work so you and your boyfriend can have more time together.[/quote]

I don’t know. I work in a care home. shifts are either 8 till 2, 2 till 8 or 8 till 8.
and he works monday to friday 9 till 12.

I don’t really know what I want to do. I sort of feel like I’m stuck. I don’t seem to have alot of money, either that or I never know where it’s going so I don’t spend alot on my self at all. I keep it just incase I need it. I kind of feel like I have no life and I don’t know what I’m aiming for anymore. I just go to work for the sack of it. And things I think of doing seem unrealisitc…because everything’s too expensive.
and when I want a break in between, something just to keep me going or chill me about it. like destress. something to look forward to or enjoy I’m thinking I might end up turning in the wrong direction because I can’t afford to do much else and don’t talk to my family hardly.

you know my life is me going to work most of the time and alot of the time that I’m off my boyfriend is at work. and the only friend I feel I can go call on where I live is someone called kim. her brothers are canny but i wouldn’t knock on their door to hang about with them.

it does stress you out. but I asked for loads of hours and now I got them I don’t wanna change my mind and make them think I’m messing them about

YEP lol see for a while I had two jobs so when I was off work with job1 I was at work with job2 and visa versa. but I quit the second one and this is my first day off with the 1st one since. if that makes sense lol

and I don’t talk with loads of people, like friends

infact I know what I can talk about. I’m not too sure what I’m doing with my life at the moment

just fancied a chat. I live on my own and this is my first day off work in 13 days and my boyfriend is at work so..

I don’t know, just anything. how are you?

[quote jetmoose]I went to a doctor and said that he thought I was stressed. …I’ll start again. I went to a doctor and he said he thought I was stressed. But at the time when I wrote this and went to see him I wasn’t stressed about anything at all.

recently I’ve been having bad days at work. I’ve been making mistakes, not been able to think properly. getting muddled up, stressed out, forgetting things and it’s making me look incompetent. and while it’s making me look bad, it’s also making me feel anxious cause I feel I’m being judged alot and I’m scared I’m gonna do something wrong.[/quote]

however recently I’ve had reason to be stressed and I can’t even finish off why cos the stupid library’s closing…………

I’m sick of never being able to talk to anyone. I might get the internet after all..

I went to a doctor and said that he thought I was stressed. …I’ll start again. I went to a doctor and he said he thought I was stressed. But at the time when I wrote this and went to see him I wasn’t stressed about anything at all.

recently I’ve been having bad days at work. I’ve been making mistakes, not been able to think properly. getting muddled up, stressed out, forgetting things and it’s making me look incompetent. and while it’s making me look bad, it’s also making me feel anxious cause I feel I’m being judged alot and I’m scared I’m gonna do something wrong.