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• Well quite frankly im 18 years old and at a stump in my life i cant get hired, No love intrests, and suffering from manic depression. posted (1 month) ago
  i have no motovation to do anything, i see myself as useless owrthless and etc, i have no self estee…

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• Well quite frankly im 18 years old and at a stump in my life i cant get hired, No love intrests, and suffering from manic depression.
  

  Good night, and yes i guess it did. and i have not attended chruch since i was 8 or 9.
  - written 1 month ago

• Well quite frankly im 18 years old and at a stump in my life i cant get hired, No love intrests, and suffering from manic depression.
  

  i understand that i just wish he would atleast give me a hint as to which direction i should take off running in. because as of now i am running in a countinous circle of self doubt and self loathing. and i am afraid to “take charge” so to speak, afraid of failing, and sick of being so paranoid of doing so.
  - written 1 month ago

• Well quite frankly im 18 years old and at a stump in my life i cant get hired, No love intrests, and suffering from manic depression.
  

  i apperciate it, and really im just unable to see myself as somthing positive even in the eyes of god. i feel as if im cursed just from the life ive lived and am still living. ive had to fight to be where i am, even as crappy as where i am at is. Do i think its made me stronger? i cant say all i know is i survived it because the lord saw fit for me too. and i hope he sees fit for me to make it through this peroid in my adult life. i pray often and hope to be heared soon. and ill have to look that verse up
  - written 1 month ago

• Well quite frankly im 18 years old and at a stump in my life i cant get hired, No love intrests, and suffering from manic depression.
  

  not really off base, i am angry with god. but i am also angry at myself for being put in the situation i am in, and not having a hand in it. and its not just one job im going after, its any job. ive filled out many applications at many places. no luck so far. as for my parents not at all are they bad. this coming from the mature side of me, as for the reblious teenage side. its like oh they hate me blah blah blah n all that drama, but i kno its not and nor do i believe it is. they are my parents and i love them and know that they have my best intrests at heart. still i just wish they could understand todays world is completely diffirent then when they were my age. and instead of lecture and threaten me with being kicked out and help me. as for the situation with the girl we never went back out she just led me to believe that we were going to work through it and the next thing i knew she told me about the other guy after telling me how much she loved me missed me and all that stuff…but yes im slowly getting over her
  - written 1 month ago

• Well quite frankly im 18 years old and at a stump in my life i cant get hired, No love intrests, and suffering from manic depression.
  

  im not sure how to respond agaperoot other then i dont really believe that was the trigger….ive always been unable to sleep well, and as for my parents i cant blame them really, im 18 years old no job no money and nothing that i have to contribute to the family, but i just wish they would understand its not like im doing it intentionally, i am out every **** day looking for work, anywork. and as for counciling, been there done that. and frankly i think its a waste of time and money. as for my faith in god, yes i use to have faith in god, but as of right now i question if he does exist at times, but being raised as a southern christian i would be shunned to even say somthing like that even to myself. i have hurt myself beofre, ive used cutting as a means of an outlet, but that was years ago, i ended up focusing all of that energy in writing and playing guitar but steadyily it became not enough for the overwhelming probloms that are staring me in the face. as for feeling like my life was over when she left…..well im not sure on that one either way. all i can say is i went throught a series of emotions in ranges ive never been too. But i’ve accepted what happened between us and am slowly moving on. but im dragging my feet. i just refuse to believe that the 6 years of friendship and the nearly 3 of dating meant nothing and was able to be torn apart in day…and thats still not the worst part..about a week after it all went down she called me…telling me things that she loved me and missed me and etc. and i fell for it like a moron. long story short i got hurt again and again because i had put all of my faith into god that he would see us theough this rocky road. but no. its currently been 6 months since we’ve split up and the pain is still as pain ful las it was the day we parted.
  - written 1 month ago

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