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• The solution to a cheating wife is not simple. posted (2 years, 10 months) ago
  I joined the army at 23, and got married, and recently returned from a tour in Korea only to find my…

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  They all sound fun. If I were you, though I would go with Geospatial engineer as it has many practical applications in the real world. There are a few jobs that people wont do because they are either too scared or just don’t have the knowledge or GT scores appropriate enough. I was in the Army for two years as a Tanker, and I’m here to tell you it was one of the best experiences of my life. Overall there were things I learned and saw in the Army that I will never get the chance to see again. I was young and we had a lot of fun. But things were also tough because I was fighting a losing battle with a cheating wife. I didn’t deploy, but I was sent out of the country for about a year which was exhilerating to say the least. If you are already at this step then there isn’t too much more to go, and it will be smooth sailing from here on out. Life is always what you make of it, so be ready, but make the best of it. Peace.
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

• How do you know when it is time to divorce your spouse?
  

  No need to work it out. Just give up. Like that NIKE commercial. You wont be good enough anyway. You will never get it right. So why ******* bother. In an attempt to have feelings and emotions will lead you to pain and agony, but we all have free will to choose our own destiny. Just remember that if she was supposed to be there in your destiny with you, then she would’ve done some things different. Some people just get tired and worn out. Imagine driving the same car for 40 years while everyone around you buys them a new one every three years. You would get tired of it. You might take care of it really well for the first two, maybe three, maybe even four or five years but then that new car smell would wear off. You start noticing little things like the cigarette burn in the upholstry or the stain on the back floorboard from the kids spilling milk all over the place. It’s a waste of money to get it detailed and really cleaned up anymore because the glory days are over. Now you have got yourself a black hole. An endless amount of resources are going to be used up trying to keep the engine running and keep the body in decent shape. Sure hard work and some tune ups may help it last a little longer than 5 years. But we all know that to expect things to go well, and you to remain happy you are going to need to invest in a new car. It’s the way things are now. They have changed from what used to be to what is now. The world is full of people buying new things all the time. We have a basic human need for food and water but nice things are a luxery and this includes your beautiful wife. And since it is improbable to expect for you to have a perfect relationship then that means that the first time you make a mistake. BAM there she is, in a motel room with another guy. All because of that one little error that you may have not even meant to make. Probably weren’t even aware that you made one. But you did. You sure did, and she will make you pay. So to say stay single forever seems like an impossible task but it also has turned out to be the only true way to happiness. It is very sad but true because deep down what she wants is attention from everywhere and she will not be happy tied down to you in a relationship while she could be out single and getting as much attention as she feels necessary. And she can relax when she wants to. She doesn’t have to always display her fake image that she must meticulously maintain in order to keep you crawling back for more. It is sad but true. So with all this being said if you are willing to trade your happiness for hers then be my guest because it sounds to me like she just wants to have her cake and eat it too.
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

• So I hate to be a whiny person with seemingly insignificant problems, but I’m feeling really low at the moment.
  

  I didn’t read a single post except for the first one because what I have to say is going to stand alone and will not go along with the group. I would just like to put in my two cents in hopes that I can maybe get a dollar back. Listen the idea that your boyfriend isn’t fully supporting you is just normal. It is just like a guys innate fear of approaching women. It is a healthy, and normal feeling but the fact that your able to recognize that you feel this way means that you are more than the feeling and without going all batshit philisophical on you, it just isn’t possible to not be able to overcome something once you recognize it is an issue. It is just like when you are in a social situation and you get nervous. You feel nervous on the inside, but in your mind you always know that you are stronger than your nerves and that there must have just been something that triggered that nervousness. Maybe it was something you did or didn’t do, but in any case it will pass. So in summary, it is ludacris to expect that you will not have negative thoughts and/or feelings but all I want is for you to recognize them, and get past them. Don’t dwell on them, but if talking about it will make you feel better then talk.
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

• The solution to a cheating wife is not simple.
  

  Those first few days after she left again were tough. We cried together day and night, and developed a special bond. And things weren’t ok yet, but I was being more honest and open than I ever had before. And it hurt her. To hear about all the people I cheated on her with, and the things I had done that she didn’t know about. It was hard to tell her, because I knew it hurt her, and that hurt me, but I felt better at that time. Well I ended my service to the military and moved back home. There was no feeling that could describe how it felt to finally see her again. Have her there in my arms. It was better than any Christmas’ morning had ever been. And I’ve had some **** good Christmas’. And that was going well. I was working temporary labor until I found a job working construction. I found out that I was on the night shift which didn’t bother me. I was going to be making an extra dollar an hour, so hey I was elated. But then February 16, 2011 rolled around. I had been home since Christmas, and two days before we exchanged valentines gifts. She got me a cookie from the great american cookie company that said “you will always have my heart”. I get off work the morning of the sixteenth and try to call her on my way home to see if she wants to meet me for breakfast but there’s no answer. I get to the apartment and she’s not there. I got my gun out. I was frustrated and I was pacing. I went to the store and bought some ciggarettes. I rolled up a blunt. I was furious. There’s knowing something, and then there’s really ******* knowing something. Well when I saw her pull up and get out looking almost angelic, without a care in the world my life was over. That was it. Throw in the ******* towel because I’m done. It was complete turmoil and I left in March to go work in Ohio. We lived together for about another month before I ate the bill, and moved us out of the apartment. Even after all of this I still took her to Walmart to buy things for her new place. I did things that a good friend would do. I loved her. I still do and would still do anything for her despite everything that has happened. In Columbus I had fun for the first time in a really long time. Sex was everywhere and it was happening a lot with a lot of different women. It was a refreshing change but I could have done without it. All I needed was her. We finished the job in mid June and I decied to stay for another month with a beautiful model I had met up there. She had two kids, and it was a wonderful change of pace to slow down and live a family life again. I felt loved. I really did, but I talked about my ex frequently and called her every chance I got. I somehow thought if other women would find me desireable then maybe she would too, but that didn’t happen. I got back home this time in August just in time for school to start and we met for dinner a few weeks after I was back. There really wasn’t much said. I just enjoyed her presence. I remember the first thing she said to me was “You look good” with a smile on her face. She always had a way of just making me feel like I was on top of the world and that was the best feeling. But I didn’t know where it was going to go from there, and I wasn’t sure what I wanted but I knew that I couldn’t lose her again. And then we lost touch. I would call and she would say she was busy but never get around to calling me back. I wrote her letters, sent her emails, drove by her house. I went full blown stalker. I even looked into getting a GPS tracker for her car. And then I realized that it was futile. Everything was in vain. There was nothing I could do but sit back and watch as she went through her life carefree while I sat suffering. And that brings us to now. She is currently seeing a new guy, and she seems like she’s really happier. It hurts to see her happier than she has ever been without me. I used to always tell myself that she wouldn’t ever be able to find anyone who could love her like I do, but she did. But I don’t care, I still love her, and I will forever. Love doesn’t have any time constraints or rules or regulations. So I will take comfort in knowing that I can love her better than she could of ever loved me. It’s a game and right now, I’m ahead by a long shot.
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

• The solution to a cheating wife is not simple.
  

  Well it’s a year and seven months later and I hope no one has lost hope on what seems to have turned into our little situation. The whole distance thing didn’t quite go so well. In my mind, I knew that was the correct response to all of this. Push her away. Give her space and time and she will come back around eventually. But my heart couldn’t do it. All I could think about was the next time I could hear her voice. I was an addict, and she was my drug. It was a common situation, but to me it felt like at that time that my entire world was crashing down on me. Nothing mattered. Things have gotten better. I have been out of the military for a year now and will never forget the people here and how much it helped being on this site. I was at Gunnery. The privates were all on the tanks shooting, which is one of the last things you do before you leave basic, but that particular day I was HUB driver and I was with the medic. It was overcast, cloudy, late evening and I would not have been able to get through the day without the support I recieved here. No one can accomplish anything of great importance by themselves, and this is possibly one of the big reasons our relationship never worked out. As far as me and the ex wife go, she did end up coming that weekend and she stayed for about three days. While she was there I bought her a computer and installed a keylogger on it where I caught her talking to her guy from the city but I didn’t give up. She packed up on a spur of the moment one morning, and headed out the door leaving me and a dog she bought me standing in the doorway, tears streaming down my face, and my dog whimpering beside me.
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

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