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Thanks for trying.I’m also sorry it did not reach. We waited for it.

Ivan’s name, but the family name is very significant so they should not have missed that.
I’m sorry it did not reach.

I did not receive any notice that something was waiting under my name. But was it under my name of Ivan’s?

But even then, with the correct address, it should have reached me anyway. Post office is no good even up to now.

Well, I don’t understand it. First there were stamps showing that it arrived by air only 2 days after I sent it. The other stamps were not dated, but one had “partly torn” and “taped” checked, but the tearing was very slight and the tape was put there by myself to reinforce the envelope. So it did not look like having been opened.
The other stamp was checked in the box “Gone Away”. I had not put any sender, but as I used the company envelope, it was returned to my company.
Strange!

Hi, I don’t know of any reason why it was sent back to you. And i don’t think it arrived in my country too soon. Most of the parcels i got from aunts arrive after a month.

Why did they return it to you? what did it say?

Hi,
I sent some waterslide stuff, an origamy folding kit and so on, to Ivan on May 18th, 2008. According to a custom’s stamp it arrived only two days later to your country, i.e. on May 20th.
The address was correct.
Today, almost one year later, I got that letter in return.
Is there any reason you know of, for that?

OK, welcome.
Take care.

Hello, thank you for your greetings on my bday post. :)

You are talking about me in your shoutbox. Common Molotok, deal with this fairly.

Eventually I got some words from you! You chose to make this public, so OK…

Yes, I will leave you alone. I have never been a stalker and I will not be it now.
You have the right to not be my friend and you have the right to not like me. You have the right to be left alone.
I don’t object to that, I even realize that I may have gotten away cheap, from something that would not work, by reasons you were hiding to me.

But it is the way you left that bothers me. To just turn away with no explanation, not answering mails, shouts, texts, IMs and such, but telling that you are hurt, was not at all nice, and does not fit the person in your profile and the person I thought that I knew.

Because you took away something from me. You took my self esteem away, my belief in my own judgement. You even removed me from your friends’ list, with no explanation.

We met here on help, and I was impressed by your profile and your communications. We started to talk much, and we started to like eachother very much. I was very aware of that I am almost double your age, but you said it was of no importance and that you loved me. I felt likewise, and we spent almost all our (or at least my) spare time by chatting and mailing. Because of time difference you spent a lot of time waiting for my job to quit, and we talked until you had to go sleeping. When I was on business trips I called or chatted from hotels instead of going out, and I stopped by the roadside to login from my laptop cellphone connection. We talked almost every day, mostly for hours.

We did not go public, as many other couple did here on help, but we spent all time together. For me it meant that I did not have much time to be on ’Help’, and felt that I slowly drifted away from people who I treasure.

In the meantime we also became best friends, and you asked me for advice in everything from the choice between dresses to the choice between another job and the PhD entrance test.

We made plans to meet, to find out if our distance relationship would work in reality. I was about to leave for your place in weeks, and we were down to hotel bookings, detailed plans of excursions, and fishing trips with your son. I had started to pack stuff for you and your boy.

Nobody can be certain about ”Internet love”, but we intended to find out. This day started with that you loved me. I had been looking for you a number of times, and I was waiting for you. When we got hold of eachother, you were angry because I had not left a message for you, and you said that I did not care enough about you. Our talk ended after 1.5 hours by you just leaving. You did not even logout, you just stopped talking. Since then you have not answered my mails, IM, shouts or anything. But you appeared very hurt on ’help’, posting ”Help me to win this fight”.

The next thing I see is the ”old Lilies” back in action, happily chatting with Ben and others. But removing me from her friends’ list, and still not talking to me. Until now.

You are not stupid, and you knew that this would hurt me. And if you did not from start, at least you knew it after a while. But you intentionally continued to hurt me, and I fail to understand why.

Did I not ”care enough” for you? I invested my future in you. I invested all my sparetime, all my engagement in you since before last Christmas. I invested myself in you. Time, love, care and even money. There are 580 mails in my mailbox marked ”Lilies”, and there are other mails outside that box. Not to mention my IM conversations’ box, which is huge. I did really care, as much as a person can do!

But I am fine now. I have realized that this was never even meant to work, and that you bailed out for reasons that are best known by yourself. Somebody told me to look at your very first post, and that tells a lot because you say that this is a game to you. You called yourself a runaway-bride, while you told me that it was the guy who ran away.

So it was a game to you, but it wasn’t to me. And this game took away a part of me.

But I am still puzzled by the dual personality. The profile ’Lilies’ is awesome. She gives good advice, she is caring and she is funny. As I understand it, that means that you somehow believe in those characteristics. Can’t you listen to your own pieces of advice? That profile is very much needed on ’Help’, and it has done a lot of good! I see no reason why that cannot continue to spread joy, being ”a game” or not.

But I sincerely hope that you will not engage in a closer relation with any other man at ’Help’, if you are not serious about it. I did not go to this site because I was hurt, I went here to get help with other things. My vulnerability comes from other reasons, most because I open up without any secrets. But most people at ’Help’ have been hurt before and are likely to get very hurt again if somebody is playing games with them!

You have been in my ”Favourites” box since you removed me from your friends’ list. I will take you off that now, and I will not disturb you again.

Have a nice life!

Molotok,

Thank you for taking time of making things look nice for me. I bet i should make this in public so anyone can access to this last communication with you.

How many weeks have passed that i last talked with you and i prefer not to be under that kind of situation again.

I know how you want to be a friend. But i personally would not want to be yours. I am sorry if this sounds rude, but i have to be honest because that is how i feel.

I am sad that it did not work. But i am happy that i had the courage to get away from it.

But thank you for taking time to IM me and give me shouts of encouragement in the days when i am down and struggling.

But to help me, i wish to ask you to leave me alone. Because i am still healing.

So please understand me. I hope that you leave me alone including staying away from my shoutbox. Your friends would not like what i am saying, because no one understands understands it better.

Please move on. Because i am trying to.

Let’s stay happy.

Take care.

L

Nobody is worthless. I see your pieces of advice to other people, and they are as good as ever before.
Listen to your own advice!
Get well.

Well, I am glad to see that you are in a good mood!
It proves that you’ve got a lot of guts!

Hi dear,
Something happened in my friends’ list…
Does this mean that you don’t even want to be my friend?

Hi there!!!!!
Broken id better!!!!
Not good, but better!
Skip thay not-listen-to-me at least this time, sweetie!
:-)

Hi dear,
I’ll be online sometime around the usual time, if you want.
Hugs

Good morning!
I am going to work now, but I will be online at the usual time.

Hehe, cute!

This happens once in a while. :D

Good morning, honey.
I still don’t have the slightest idea of what happened.

Sorry, no I don’t know. If it is something said or done at help, I definitely don’t know, because I have not spent any time here lately.
But I trust that you tell me about it, so I will not have to guess.

You obviously don’t know what happened. Of all people Molo, you are the only one who does not not know the latest about me.

Take your time to know what happened. Or you will never really know.

Good morning!
Sorry, I did not understand. What people did I listen to, who did not listen to me?

It’s sad when you listen to them, but they don’t listen to you. :(

Hi! Oh so sorry i slept too early last night. :( Had to hurry up this morning for me and the little one’s school. Now it’s lunch time here so i sent you something to your yahoo too.

I am well, adjustments with the schedule. but things are just fine in general. :)

I miss you too! :) :)

Hugs again!

Hi hon!
I was looking for you.
Hugs!

Thank you for the flowers. :) Arranged them in a vase.

Good morning, honey!
I’ll see you on yahoo!

Hi honey, got your offline msg and mail. Replied. Looks like you are doing a great job with the car. Shiny as new! :)

I am going to rest now, holler if you are done with the AC.

Oh, sorry to hear about it. :(

Hi hon!
Back, but without my phone… :-(

I hope i won’t be sleeping after you work. :(

Good morning!
I shouted at yahoo, but I have to go to work now.
Anyway, we’ll talk later.
Take care of Ivan and yourself!
I wrote something about that on yahoo.
Hugs!

Hello honey, thank you for your warm greetings on this post. :)
http://help.com/post/166118-congratul…

Honey, will leave an email. Anne is inviting for dinner, will take Ivan with me. But will still talk to you tonight.

How are things with you? see ya!

Hehe, why strange?

:) you are strange.

Good Morning, honey!
I’m still sleeping…
Just went up for a minute, going back to bed.
See you later!
Hugs!

Okay, going out, buying food. Lot is coming over with her kids. My niece graduation from hi school. See you!

I’m rushing to work now.
We’ll talk later.
Hugs & lemons!

Hi hon, good morning too. :)

Good Morning, honey!
See you later today!
Hugs!

Hehe, hi sweet!

:) honey.

Good morning, dear!
I sent a mail.
Hugs!

Good night, then!

Hey there!

I just sent you a mail, read your offline messages too. :)

My cold is not helping. ggrrr.

I will sleep early, need to be up at 6am…you know i don’t wake up early. hehe.

Good morning again, honey!
This time I don’t shout in my own box.
See you later!
Hugs & Lemons!