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I encountered a lot of relationship problems with him, because he is the first crush I ever had. I met him when I was married, so it was not easy for both of us. I finally divorced my ex and things went a bit easier. However, I could not trust him enough and could not communicate to him well enough, so i started to make things really difficult for him. I want to change and I am changing. I listed out all the things that I need to work on and put them on the mirror, so I can see it every morning and night. He tried very hard to keep us together, but I just kept on questioning if he truely loves me because he used to wonder around. I really love him and want to make it work. But he is determined that this is not what he wants after our argument last Wed and told me that his love has faded. What can I do to get back with him?