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Lizz,

Thank you. He wrote me an email after being very cold and harsh. He told me that the relationship did not work because he finally came to realize that he did not want to be with my two very precious kids after everything he has done and said. He told me that he misses me and really wants to be friends again. However, I only feel anger and rage in me now. I am closing all the doors with me, even I am still hurt. I am still very, very hurt and still love him very much. I love him with all my heart. I woke up in the middle of the night with tears and I could not eat. This is it. I will never be able to accept him as a friend after all this. I am still in tears and pain, but I think I am done no matter what he says.

Thank you very much for responding. I got a call from him this morning, because he thought that I called him. He said that he did not want to be rude not calling back. He sounded really cold. I could not believe this is the same person that sent me a note of telling me how much he loved me last week. Just one week ago. I finally woke up after that. I realized that if he could threw away something so easily. It is not too important to him. I will fight my way through and will not expect him to come back. Thank you. I need all the support and recommendation i can get to get through this. I will also change my phone number soon, so he will not be able to contact me any more.

I believe that i need to fix myself. That’s very true. He is a good person. He does not drink or smoke. But I know it does not help to think about how good he is now. I know I have problems. I am not very emotionally stable and I get very sensitive about things that he said and over-reacted on that. I am seeking some help now. I know that I need to love myself and be happy with myself. It is something that I have never experienced before. I looked deep down inside and realized that I have never let myself fallen in love with anyone else before, not even my ex. I understand and appreciate everything you said. How do I get over this period of pain?

I think I need to let him go, but it is really hard. I cannot control myself not to call him or email him. He has blocked me from his IM and does not want to talk to me or see me at all. I know that it is truely over this time.

My ex and I had been seperated for a while before i met him. He was in China and I was in California, so we did not really have anything left. I met him through work. He was sweet, fun and patient. However, he was only 28 and I was 36 with two kids. One month after we lived together, i felt that he was drifting away and i felt that he lost his interest in me both physically and emotionally. I asked to break up with him, but we got back together right away. Later on, things got worse. We broke up and got back together at least 5 times. I found out that he slept with a hooker and went out with my friend. We kept our relationship as a secret because we worked in the same company. I was really hurt when I found that out. We broke up for 3 weeks and then we got back together again. I thought that I could forget and forgive about what he did. I let go of the hooker part, but I never let go of the part that he went out with my friend. So we had this argument last Wednesday and he said that he just could not take it anymore. He left and did not want to talk to me or see me any more. I talked to him last night and he seemed so cold and so determined. He said that he does not love me any more. He could just turn away and told me that there is no more love left in him. Does he really love me or care about me? He tried hard this time to make it work. It was me that screwed up this time. I am in deep depression and cannot find any way out. I really love and want him back, but I know it is just not possible this time. He is so cold and determined…