Well with waitressing, you are not having to be personal with anyone so it is easier. It is when you are letting people see the real you that fear and anxiety pops up. You worry that you will not be accepted or liked. Once you learn to like and love yourself, you will stop worrying about what others think of you.
Focus on your good qualities and mentally compliment yourself. Lift yourself up. Be your own mental cheerleader.
It’s in math, stuff like perimeter, area and circle stuff. It’s actually easy for the basic parts but later on like word problems with it and finding lengths in polygons, it get’s tough, but then again i’ve never been good at math:/
Ah, I see, very good:D
Midterm was around a week ago so im about halfway done with the semester. Taking very hard test. Also much tough homework. But with any luck this will be my last semester before im on my way.
Wow, trust me, the exact or very similar incidents as that in your posts have happened/are happening to me right now! It’s really weird but it’s true!
Being bullied a lot, never having a proper girl, lack of self-esteem…etc.
and THE EXACT incident of “Why do I even bother?”..this is happening to me right now..and the ‘good girls’ aren’t that good as well!
We were best friends in the beginning and then we were together for a very short duration (she’s the only girl I’ve been with and it lasted for a month), then she left me for her ex, we now call ourselves “very good friends”, but all she does is ignore me and never care about what’s happening in my life! And apparently, the guy doesn’t want her to be close to me! And the worst part is that she listens to him! I don’t know if I have to continue being “very good friends” or just forget about her and ignore her!
I’m still waiting for a diagnosis! Nothing is clear yet.
After the first lung biopsy histology (stationary at the hospital) I had to make a second one (ambulant at the same hospital), because they told me that they couldn’t find any significant cells yet. And recently they told me, even with the second one they couldn’t find any.
And this despite of the big space-consuming lesion in the lung (which is very good visible in the lung x-ray).
They said also that the histology of the surgically removed cells from the cerebellum don’t show any clear results.
Seems to be a mystery …
(But the oncologist told me, that cancer cells know multiple ways to disguise.)
Maybe I have to endure a third lung biopsy, this time made from outside, CT-guided through the thorax to check also the lymph nodes near the lung.
Until now the oncologist is clueless and he cancelled the first meeting which was scheduled for yesterday.
They made the first two biopsies across the airway deep down to the lung with needles and forceps to get cell samples.
Beside the side effects (some small local lung injuries for which I’ve to take antibiotics, and a heavy, but now decreasing cough which I’ve never had during my whole smoking life) I feel very well!
A short information for my friends about my current situation
(And, sorry, this is a general message; I’m not able yet to send individual messages to each of you.)
In the morning of Monday March 19 fits of dizziness started in a row. I wasn’t able to stand or walk without vomiting. My first idea was: influenza (because that days we had influenza high season here). And my wife and me had to ask for a domiciliary visit of our general practitioner, because I wasn’t able to visit him. But no fever, and normal blood pressure. So he called the emergency room (ER) of the next hospital and they come for me, transported me lying (!) to the ER.
There they made a genral check again and didn’t find anything — before they started a first computed tomography (CT) scan. The CT showed an incident in my cerebellum. (The cerebellum is responsible for the fine motor skills.)
But because they haven’t a neurological department, the ER transported me further to the neurology of the university hospital. And after some more clinical diagnostics (including MRI, X-Ray etc. — the whole programme) it was clear: I had what they call a “space-occupying lesion” in my cerebellum (less mealy-mouthed: a tumor); type of tumor and cause still unknown. But to make a brain surgery was urgent.
The surgery happened Friday 23, made by an excellent neurosurgeon and without any single harmful secondary effects to my brain or my locomotor system — just great!
Unfortunately the histological result showed that this tumor was a metastasis of a quite big primary tumor found in a part of my lungs, confirmed by an additional Positron Emission Tomography (PET) and a lung biopsy.
The fact is: It’s a metastasizing lung cancer — but still treatable.
(And yes, I’m a heavy smoker. But b.t.w. not all smokers get lung cancer and not all lung cancer patients are smokers.)
Thursday 29 my hospital stay ended.
Next week I will have a first meeting with the oncologists. The further treatment (probably with chemotherapy) will start after, and presumably in an ambulant manner.
You have to know that I’m in a very good mood, really! I’m not sad, not glum, and not quarreling with my fate at all! And I have no problem to talk about this disease. I take it as it comes, and I have also a wonderful support by my family and friends living here.
I guess I will not come back to help.com so often as before, but I will!
I thank all of you who enquired, and I wish you all the best, because: Things always seem to happen when you least expect them.
P.S. 1 The best joke is my avatar picture, no? Like anticipated somehow …
P.S. 2 You may show this message also to other people who ask after me; I’ve no secrets.
well, I have marmite and vegemite for the boys but i like promite better - they each have a slightly different taste. Vegemite is kind of salty and each one just depends on your taste buds. i wonder if you could get promite somewhere there?
Try and get the courage (and i know it will be very hard) to just say hello to someone at your school that you think might be someone you could become friends with or even go up to someone and say ‘do you mind i sit with you’ when you’re at lunch….little steps darling.
I really think you’ve gone through so much and still are and need someone compassionate to talk to face to face as a counselor.
You will have good and bad days. I lost my grandmother when i was only 19 and she was like a mother to me, though I did have my mum, but was much closer to grandma. Loss is never, ever easy.