I can certainly understand you leaving this site. You were so active it appeared to be an obsession/addiction. Sometimes I can become obsessed with on single thing for days, and there is something about the internet and computers, they can be so hard to ignore. Best of luck, I hope things start to improve for you soon.
Well, hope you get this. Any question that starts with “is it normal to…” is a bit of a problem. Normal is a subjective term. I don’t think “normal” people think about killing themselves everyday, but by normal in this case I mean mentally healthy, free of disability. Thinking in these normative terms can cause mental problems though, because you are imposing artificial standards on yourself.
I’m sorry to hear that stuff about you having that much difficulty with agoraphobia and other stuff. I have been advised that the best way to minimize your anxiety in the short run is to face it.
you can’t play diablo or diablo II on your vista? have you tried? I have found they work on XP, as do many other games, even though they only say they work on ‘98