Fizz's shout trail with ~Shie~ - Help.com

Sorry, I just got your last shout, I don’t come around here much. I just got tired of the ugliness, shame for a help site, it wasn’t seeming that helpful, lol.

Glad that things are improving for you. If you still have my email address you can email anytime or send me a message at Luminosity, I will get it there.

Take Care

Thank you fizz. God, it has been a very long time. First off, I want to start off by saying a very long sorry for all the crap in the past that honestly, I can’t even remember exactly what happened only parts and know that what was done was out of control and my anger was wrong. I have been in counseling for the past few months and found that I suffer from post traumatic stress disorder as well as bi polar along with my normal depression. With therapy and a medication change, things have been improving a lot so, I am sorry that things ended up the way that they did for us because I seriously felt as though you were like a sister to me.

Anyways. Now that is over and I have said my peace, I want to say thank you for your recent comment to me. It is a long time coming!! So much in life has changed since the last time we have talked from my health taking a turn for the worse to me getting to see my son and him actually possibly coming home in September!! :)
In the last few weeks or so, I have to say that I have been blessed with many miracles and definitely have quite a few angels watching over me and I am absolutely proud to admit this to the world!!! :)
Things in life are starting to finally turn around and I am seeing things that I am so grateful for in life rather than looking at the negative and it is wonderful to finally look a bit further in the future and to dream again rather than living day by day. (except these daily dr appt’s that is, those are getting a bit old!!!)
I hope you and your family are doing well. I will soon be a grandma in October, can you believe that? lmfao. Me, a granny… lmfao.. my oldest Keisha is having a baby girl. She just graduated high school and will be 18 before the baby is born. Im so proud of her. Wish she knew this though. But in due time :)
Anyways. Im just glad that you stopped in to say hi. Many hugs. Love Shie.

I saw your post and wanted to say how happy I am for you about seeing your son and hoping for the best.

I would have responded on your post, but I really don’t want to give people the impression that I am actually back. Maybe I will check things out from time to time, but I’m not coming back full time to this site.

Now we’re finally getting somewhere! I don’t know why we haven’t been able to talk without it being this tug of war.

It’s not that I think that you are lying in what you’ve been saying. It’s just I haven’t understood why you have kept trying to convince me. I judge based on what I see and not what someone else tells me. I do think there have been lies told in all of this, but I’m not saying that you have told any.

It’s the same with you, if a friend came to me and told me things that you have said and done things that were horrible, I wouldn’t believe them if they told me it is what they heard from somebody else, it doesn’t matter who they are, I would give you the benefit of the doubt because you are my friend.

If I weren’t in a good mood, I’d be offended that you think I’m dumb enough to be fooled easily. I am just giving people the benefit of the doubt and waiting to pass judgement until I see something to sway my opinion one way or another.

In all of this time, I haven’t seen anything for myself that would lead me to change my opinion. I’m sorry if that bugs you and I’m sorry you are upset that I won’t change my mind.

and you are right.. there are many liars on this web site.. and you are being snowballed into seeing only what they want you to see.. sad really… but.. to each their own.. i am a very truthful person.. i swear on my children’s lives.. that what i tell you is the god’s honest truth.. and i can not stand here and force you to believe what im saying.. only you will see in time..

I’ve left you some messages, but now I’m just done. I’m sorry if you got mad/upset or however you felt about me saying you were wrong originally. I still have to stand by that, because I still believe that. I also still believe what I’ve said about Dani all a long. She is not completely innocent and she is not completely bad.

I know that you think that I am stupid for not believing some of the stuff being said about her, but that’s just how I am, I don’t believe hearsay, I have to see the proof myself and I haven’t seen anything to tell me other wise.

I am to the point that I don’t trust anyone here on this website. I think there are just to many liars.

You logged off yahoo…did you get my apology for storming off in a huff?

yeah.. it is a bit freaky at times… anything new that i experience.. i always wonder… is it that… cuz even losing my balance.. i can be walking just fine and then all of a sudden fall into the wall.. ugh.. stupid tumor.. but anyways.. have lots of fun painting.. enjoy the time that you have with your baby girl.. shie.

I saw some of that info on your post, but I’m on lightening speed here so I just scanned it. That really is the pits.

Knowing what’s causing somethings might help, but I imagine it must be frightening, not knowing what might happen next. (((hugs)))

Well, she’s done so now I have to go help move her furniture out and start the walls.

Hope to talk soon. Smooches.

no.. the surgery is for my disc.. not the tumor. the tumor is what is of concerns. it actually makes it where it affects everything.. including my speech.. which it has started to affect .. i will be talking just fine.. and all of a sudden.. it makes me start stuttering like im drunk.. i hate it.. i have noticed this the last couple of years.. but my dr at the time said i was fine.. ugh.. until i started digging around on the net and found out that the tumor causes this.. let alone.. numbness in my left arm and other stupid things.. so that is what the diagnoses is for… because of the tumor…. making it where i cant drive.. who knows what else its going to do… i just notice these small things because it just isnt me… lol.. and even though i laugh about it.. on the inside.. i cry.. because at the time.. i didnt know what the hell was going on with me.. but now i feel better knowing.. that im not turning into a dunce.. lol

hunter green is my fave color, but this green that she chose is more of a bright lime..it sure is a sight to see..lol

Yeah, I read that they said you can’t drive anymore..that’s the pits. Any chance that will change after the surgery?

Me…I’m ok..just dreading all the decorating “fun” lol

hahahahahaha.. that is funny… green is my favorite color.. lol… as for me.. eehh.. im hurting a bit… ever since the disability dr went probing around on my back… i actually took a flexiral the other day.. thinking i would cut it in half.. because it does me in for over a day… yeah.. even though i picked the littlest half.. i went to bed at 1am.. which i usually stay up til about 4am… and i was out for the entire day.. until 5 pm the next day… ugh… next time.. ill cut it into quarters.. lol.. the pain is dealable today.. i actually am suffering from not having my ‘happy pill’ for a couple of days… my head is spinning.. ugh.. i just got those.. and have taken one… expecting to get sleepy soon.. lol.. that is why i take them at night.. cuz they cause me to get tired.. but had to make the spinning stop.. lol… the disability dr told me that i cant drive anymore… friggin sucks… now i feel like my whole freedom has been taken away… but ill do.. ill just buy roger one of those limo suits to wear.. hehehehehehe… wait.. 6 ft 4, 300 lbs.. not sure they make them that big.. lmfao.. hahahahahha.. ahhh crap… lmfao.. how are you doing?

I don’t have time to turn on yahoo or even chat much at all…My daughter is clearing out her room..so I can prep the walls to paint them…she picked out this horrible bright green wall color..but she loves it..so I have to make it work somehow..lol

Anyhow just wanted to check in and see how you are?

hahahahahahahaha

I’m giving up on it, keeps booting me and logging in visible and it’s never supposed to do that.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr I got it logged on and then the stupid thing booted!!!

It hates me.

what is going on with yahoo?

Stupid yahoo won’t log in!!!

lol

I knew you couldn’t stay away!

summer vacation.. hahahaha.. i bet you are looking forward to september and the first day of school already arent ya… lol… i got your email.. im sssooooooooooo happy… yay… i wonder if your daughter will now think about doing her work seeing she has had this down period of not knowing and the possibility of failing.. hopefully it was her little wake up call on… DO THE HOMEWORK!! lol.. as for me.. ugh. my step son is coming over.. so there goes my nap.. he is 14… he had a stroke when he was 6 months old.. he has extreme adhd and will get into everything if i dont watch him.. once went to put my contacts in.. and he had taken one of them out of my case.. you want to see someone freak out… i had to open my last pair… and they arent cheap.. but anyways.. i should be around.. so just buzz me because if anything.. ill be laying on the couch watching some tv.. im very happy about your daughter.. what a stress reliever that is… ttyl.. love ya lots.. tammy

Don’t know when you’ll get this, but I doubt I’ll be around late this afternoon. Kids get out of school early since it’s the last day of school.

Hope you get a chance to nap today! I don’t have no clue when I’ll have a chance to get online again. I’ll try to talk to you sometime next week, if I am not able to today.

just letting you know that i have 2 appt’s today…. its for welfare… so you know ill be there a good part of the day…. ugh.. they are so friggin slow!!!!!!!!!! one at 12 30 and one at 2…. but ill be back later… might need a nap though… lol.. i got up too early… thinking i had to be… and im already ready for a nap… hahahahahaha… ttyl.. love tammy.

hahaha.. okie dokie.. ttyl… have a good dinner..

Not sure if I heard about the burnt toast, but save it for tomorrow…gotta go

well… i feel like one of those little old ladies with the top of the fridge covered with bottles.. hahahaha… well.. as for the thyroid.. that is hereditary as well.. my mom has it.. mine doesnt work.. so i will be on those meds for the rest of my life.. as for the 7 meds that i take.. if i didnt take those.. i could go 1 1/2 months with out using the bathroom… have actually puked bile.. ick.. its either take the meds.. or have a colostomy bag… im not going there…. lol.. the depression meds… if i dont take those.. all i do is cry… have i ever told you about the burnt toast?? oh boy… it was bad.. lol..

Your a walking talking pharmacy. Any chance you will ever be healthy?

wish i could say that.. lol.. because of my ex husband.. he would not allow me to pass gas for ten years… as he said.. “girls dont do that”.. so i ruined my intestines.. and now have about 7 meds i take daily… just so i can use the bathroom… not to mention my thyroid med, depression med and pain meds.. lol

I don’t do anything about it though..ya ya I know what people and doctors say, but I just figure I’m to young for lifetime medications.

hahahaha.. no kidding…. hehehehehehehehe…

Ok after our convo today on IM..gotta tell you something really weird.

I have high cholesteral and it’s hereditary!

well.. i went to the dr’s about a month ago.. and my cholesteral was really high.. they upped my thyroid meds.. and i had to go back to have it tested… well.. i went last friday and my cholesteral is extremely high now.. i just dont get it.. i only eat once a day… so.. i have to try to eat healthy.. hahahahahaha.. yeah right… but i have been trying.. because they told me that by the time im 40.. im going to have a heart attack.. so im trying.. but they said it is probably hereditary.. which means.. another pill that i have to take.. but heck with it.. i want meat!!!!!!!!! lol…

roger is at work.. and i can see everything that he is doing on his computer.. with out him sitting at it.. hahahaha..

lol

yum yum hamburger…I could never even be a vegitarian. lol

roger just beeped me on my phone… and asked what i was doing.. i said.. what ya think.. cuz he knows and makes fun of me and help.com.. hahahaha.. he goes.. look at my computer… (he’s at work by the way)… his computer is going nuts… hahahaha.. he has hacked into his own computer… lmfao..

hahahahaha…. okie dokie.. as for me… i have been eating salads for the past week… i miss real food… watching everyone else eat hamburgs and fried chicken… my little lips are drooling… think im going to make myself a huge hamburg in a bit… lol

I’m back here, but can’t turn on IM cause if Hubby comes home, I need to jet quick, lol, dinner

did you get the message I just sent on there?

nope.. showing offline..

That’s weird..it’s on…am I not showing online?

omg.. turn on your messenger.. i have got to tell you something… lol

got to help greeneyes with her pics quick.. ill brb..

Help is moving to slow for your shout to startle me..I’m logging on to IM…I forgot to earlier.

BOO… lol

exactly….

help is lagging so badly…

Yeah, people have let them forget they work for us, not the other way around.

i didnt know that you could leave a message either to a landline… that is weird.. yeah.. you know how the dr’s work… on their own time….

I didn’t even know you could send a text to landline message, lol

You had to leave a message, what time do they get in the freakin office. What they got bankers hours? Geez

mine too… lol