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• My boyfriend and I just broke up, we’ve been together for 9 years. posted (3 months, 3 weeks) ago
  I’m totally devestated, hurt, can’t eat, can’t focus, and all I want to do is be w…

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• My boyfriend and I just broke up, we’ve been together for 9 years.
  

  @Louisfar - Thank you for responding! We have talked about getting married from time to time. I know in my heart, that he does love me. He is mostly guarded about his feelings, because he doesn’t want to get hurt. I can tell by the way he looks into my eyes. When were laying next to each other, when I tell him ‘I love you’, he looks back at me vulnerable, unguarded, with the truth in his eyes. I can tell he feels it, he is so afraid of getting hurt, it easier for him to sabotage our relationship, and end it ,because he thinks I’m going to eventually leave him because he can’t perform sexually due to his diabetes. I have always been commited and consistant with our relationship. I love how important and strong his faith is, it speaks volumes of the kind of man that he is. I’m always so proud to be with him. He doesn’t care what others think, his morals and ethics are what matters. his insecurity is what’s the issue and he thinks I can do better than him. Sometime’s I think he’s looking for that reassurance, for me to tell him I would never leave him, or if he breaks up with me if I’ll come after him…. Ugghhh I really don’t know:/
  - written 3 months, 2 weeks ago

• My boyfriend and I just broke up, we’ve been together for 9 years.
  

  @Michele_lee_perry - Thank you again for you response, it touches my heart to know that someone’s actually out there, and care’s to respond, and you understand:)
  
  Your comment regarding ‘We are all struggling with something. People may look perfectly okay on the outside and be melting down on the inside. Nobody should ever have to feel alone. Yes, of course there’s God. He never turns His phone off. But He wants us to share with each other too’ pertains to my EGR above:)
  
  Your comment ‘Jesus slipped away to get His own soul restored in the quietness of Papa’s presence. Sometimes, you gotta have some help and sometimes you gotta have some peace’ has helped me to understsand that it’s okay to feel overwhelmed. I never thought of it like that:/
  
  Your insight has been greatly appreciated!! I too hope you take the time for yourself, in the quietness, peace and presence of ‘Papa’, as only he can restore our soul ((Hugs)).
  - written 3 months, 2 weeks ago

• My boyfriend and I just broke up, we’ve been together for 9 years.
  

  He has Type 2 Diabetes…
  
  Not only do I have this going on… My 82 year old father has to have a bilateral knee replacement next month (he and my mother live up north), my oldest brother was just admitted rehab (for abusing pain meds) he lives on the west coast. My mother was on the phone crying to me she can’t get to see him because my dad needs her help. I really, really don’t talk about ANY of this to ANYONE!!! I just try to deal with everything on my own, but everything has just gotten to me, and I feel I can’t handle anyting else, and I just don’t know how much more I can handle….. I’m always, always, the go to person, when someone needs help or is in trouble or needs someone to lean on.
  
  EGR (Extra Grace Required), My mantra!! I use this everyday, ALL day. I have it hanging up at my desk at work (to remind me). I always do my absolute best, and try my hardest to understand and be gracious and kind to others. You never know what people coming into work with on their minds, and what they’re leaving at home. The reason they may be in a bad mood and short with you could be they’re going through difficulties at home, financial troubles, relationship issues, divorces, abuse, ANYTHING!!! I’m appreciative to the person bagging my groceries to the women cleaning the bathrooms at work. I tell them Thank you and let them know what a good job they’re doing.
  
  I think God is still building my charachter. I think this is what I get/deserve (punishment/karma) for things I’ve done in my past. I’ve asked God for forgivness many times, and I’ve truly been faithful. I do my best to let it be God’s will and not my own, that drives my decisions.
  
  I’m rambling now, heavy hearted and tired. I think I might even sleep tonight without the help of a Melatonin:) I can’t thank you enough for caring and listening to me and offering your wisdom. I sincerely appreciate it. You have helped me more than you can imagine!
  - written 3 months, 3 weeks ago

• My boyfriend and I just broke up, we’ve been together for 9 years.
  

  NO worries:) LOL!! I’m sure if we ever did get married, she would respect our space, but I’m sure she’d still want to iron all his clothes!!! It has frustrated me in the past that all he has to do is get up in the morning and go to work and come home and there is a meal waiting for him. If I spend the weekend with him, we’ll get there on a Friday night and she’ll have cleaned his house. I’ve said to him that he has it so easy. But he says his mom wants to do it so he lets her. If it was me, I’d want to do it on my own, and not want my mom in my business, or anything. Weird/Dysfunctional in a way. His mother lives alone but has many relatives that live nearby. Everyone is in their business. He’s even gotten mad at me before when we were at his mom’s and I jokingly said to him ‘when we get home ‘S’ has stuff to do (like clean up some things I was eluding to). He actually got mad at me because I said it in front of his mom like I was telling him what he had to do. I still didn’t/don’t get that???? I usually let alot of things roll of my back, and try and choose my battles. I work hard, I’m a professional, and work at a large corporate office. He owns a small trucking company. He’s told me in the past that I could find a nice, wealthy, man that could perform sexually (he has erectile dysfunction b/c he’s a diabetic) that would give me everything I could ever want and need. I don’t know why he says this, he knows I love him and I’m committed to him. He’s also said even though we’re not married he considers us to be. I’ve been talking to him every day, but haven’t seen him in over a week. I call to tell him I love him, and I’m thinking about him because I care. Maybe I shouldn’t? He said he wants space to figure out what he wants…
  - written 3 months, 3 weeks ago

• My boyfriend and I just broke up, we’ve been together for 9 years.
  

  @Michele_lee_perry - Thank you again for taking the time to respond:) I absolutely agree with you, and just to clarify, we are not married. I have my own place and he has his. I didn’t want to move in with him because I have 2 kids, 23 and 21 (they’re now out on their own), and I didn’t want to send my kids the wrong message. Although, my son is living with his girlfriend, and my daughter is living with her boyfriend. They both moved out this past year. Thank you for your prayers, they do help! I’m a firm believer. I’ve always tried to do the right thing and I’m not perfect in any way. Your comment ‘ Sounds like he may even have a love/hate relationship with him’. If you’re saying that he may have a love/hate relationship with his mother, I agree b/c he does get frustrated sometimes when she interferes with they way he is handling the problems with his son. Blessings to you for the help you’ve not only given to me, but to all the others you help too. Thank you.
  - written 3 months, 3 weeks ago

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