Mostly I don’t have a coherent picture of this project I have babbled about, that’s why I may not have words that are easy to understand about it. It’s just what I’m focused on, ‘understanding my life.’
Yeah, your example of understanding is one sort of thing I stumbled across as I went about my day. It is possible to project so many meanings on such a simple statement of “help me understand my life”, and some of those meanings are very relevant to what seems important to me.
But yeah, I don’t know what sort of “answers” would be meaningful in life, except to a mind that is so full of understanding that life itself is very meaningful, so how would you tell those answers to anyone?
I have no worry about not finding answers. It’s not like that at all. It’s like, sometimes you don’t understand anything about life, and sometimes you understand more about life. I’m making it my conscious quest, moment by moment, almost all day long, to pursue the state of understanding more. It’s really simple except it’s a big trade-off to be doing that rather than pursuing happiness, money, food, etc. There are a million more fun things to do, it’s just this interesting quest I have for unknown reasons embarked upon. (The most obvious reason is that I think I let myself become too clueless about my life, spending most of my time being more ’selfless’, not really ever noticing myself to try to understand myself.)
Anyway, sorry for so many words. This is why I don’t reply to posts much right now, it’s just babble or something to talk to a person.
By the way, would you mind clarifying what you mean by understanding your life?
That’s mostly what I’m working on. I don’t even remember the initial inspiration for this, but my project could be phrased like, “Help me understand my life” — but I’m not asking for help from other people, so I just have to figure out what it means. What does that sentence mean? What is most important to understand about my life? What is there to understand? Why did I suddenly switch all my other activities to just trying to understand?
Surely I should know all the answers, if it is my project for myself, but I don’t, and therefore it is a quest to find myself and to find understanding. Like, I read the wikipedia page about “understanding” a few times, and searched for websites about “understanding” did many other things like that. I didn’t understand much yet, but I do plan on it. :)
I’m okay, I’m mostly distracted on a huge quest to understand my life. It’s coming slowly, trying to figure out how best to understand anything.
I wish people were nice to each other, maybe even “help”ing each other, then life would be less crazy. But I see how hard it is to do anything nice for anyone when you’re on a mission, like I am on a mission just to understand, not to help.
1. Christmas, birthdays, and pretty much all major holidays will be somewhat nice and crappy at the same time. For me my parents have both remarried so when something like a birthday or christmas comes there are actually more gifts and you get twice as much yummy food to eat. However in the case of my ex when we celebrated christmas it was with both of her parents but her dad was alone and there was very little, almost in a saddening kinda depressive way. However her mom had a boyfriend by then and it was much more cheerful.
So expect that you may have to gain from it by spending more time with them individually, but they’re likely going to suffer a little bit so they will need your attention a little more than usual on christmas and related big holidays. Birthdays, meh, it’s just another day.
2. It’s gonna be weird, and depending on if your sister is still living with them when it happens it could be a nightmare for her. For you since you’re an adult and you get things more than her you’ll understand that it’s your mom or dad’s choice to be happy and you’ve no right to tell them that they can’t be. Your sister might feel like she has a say in it, so you’ll have to help ehr through it when the time comes.
Otherwise just get to know the man or woman and give them a fair chance. In my experience my step dad has good intentions but is a complete dick sometimes and I just have to give him space so that I don’t blow up on him. However he loves my mom and that’s whats important. My stepmom was the one I had trouble with as she married my dad when I was only 13 or so and she tried to play as my mom and it was like world war 3 for like 6 years, I kid you not. It’s only been in the last few years that I’ve seen her as a loving step mom. (I’m 27)
My ex adjusted pretty well to her mom’s boyfriend actually, she enjoyed having him as a step dad because he took the effort to get to know her, and vis versa.
3. Since it happened for me when I was a kid I can’t say from personal experience, but based on my ex I’d say it took about 3 or 4 months for the really deep weird feeling to go away. Bout the same amount of time any hard relationship breakup takes in my opinion. She still felt a little weird about it a year later, but not as much since she was understanding and mature about it all (She knew her mom and dad were’t happy together and that it was best for them to divorce)
Thank you, for your words on one of my posts. I have done a lot of those things, but there are some others that I feel like I really need to try out. I do need to be somewhere where I can just talk to myself. I can also try harder on those of the things, for example believing that I worth the trouble. I’ve actually just had a little break down about things (school/friends/college/life) and it was some faculty person I talked to twice who helped me out. It was like tough love, and it made me feel so much worse but then when I looked at your post, and then thought back to her words (the faulty person) all I could think was I can’t let this get me so down all the time. I do need to keep moving. I’m never going to have success if I feel so distraught all the time. And I wanted you to know, that I appreciate you. I’m so sorry I just rambled, but you deserved something more than just a response in a thread, you deserved a thank you.
It’s interesting that the small version is so different than the large one. There’e something weird about it to me, but it just makes sense for your colors to keep rolling how they were before.
I know that this will make for a big colorful shout in your messagebox… I hope that’s okay. These are just the smaller ones I did yesterday after I made the too-big one. They have fewer frames but also have reduced colordepth. (From top to bottom, it is 32, 64, and 128 colors). I think it is interesting how the lower resolution of color is equivalent to the granularity of the low resolution length*width.
Missionay Wikipedia page:
“in the Latin translation of the Bible, Christ uses the word when sending the disciples to preach in his name.”
I think nowadays missionaries are mostly cummunity and human-rights related, but I know that many years ago (like, centuries) they were there to convert people as well.
Don’t take my criticism too much to heart, I think its a very personal thing whether or not medication works for you and how you use it. I’m frankly not decided on the matter but I come down so hard against them because, well, no-one else ever seems too and there are certainly drawbacks.
Please refrain from making replies like the one you made on http://help.com/post/538948-i-used-to… . If a post is annoying you that much then wouldn’t make more sense to avoid that post rather than post insensitive comments on it?
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