800 cals is very low for a meal plan - is this one that’s been given to you or one you made yourself? Although you may be on a low cal plan to avoid refeeding syndrome so I do understand care has to be taken, in my opinion it is too low to allow for any physical or mental recovery.
Just remember that you are still very early on in your recovery. Don’t panic or be disheartened that things don’t all get better at once because this is, unfortunately, going to be a very long process. But if you continue to fight, you WILL get there, it is possible.
My advice is see if you can increase your meal plan. Although this will understandably be psychologically hard, I think it will actually help improve your mood. Eating more will also make you feel less like bingeing (for example, on 800 cals I would day dream about bingeing ALL the time, and spend my entire day imagining what foods I could eat if only I let myself. On 2000-2500, I barely even think about it).
Limit your exercise - in fact I’d suggest that you stop exercising full stop for at least the first couple of weeks. You need to let your body repair itself and really this is only going to happen if you eat 2500 and don’t exercise. You need to break the pattern of exercising to make up for what you’re eating and this will not help you in your recovery at all.
You will get through this, and you will be a stronger person because of it. Just remember that you are at the beginning of a very hard journey, and you are going to want to give up many times. Don’t. Things will only get better if you continue to fight your eating disorder. It will be long and hard but if you persevere you can make it. - written 5 months, 3 weeks ago
Just thought you’d like to know that I told her yesterday. She told me that it wasn’t uncommon in people who’ve had a bad time of it, and that if I really don’t feel safe I should go to A&E. It wasn’t too scary and I DIDN’T GET SECTIONED :D - written 11 months, 1 week ago
I think it would only really help you forget things while you were drunk. You’d remember them again while sober and fall into the dangerous pattern of being sober less and less to remember less and less. Put it this way: even if that did happen, one way or another you would have to recover one day. Which means that one day you would have to face up to the trauma and deal with it in a healthy manner. Do that now, before you burden yourself with more physical and psychological complications. - written 11 months, 2 weeks ago