Why on earth do I still feel this way? posted (1 year, 3 months) ago
Okay so let me introduce myself first, my name is Mae. I really hope tgis is a judgement free zone …
Yes I do, my school councelor recommended it and I’ve personally learned to deal with my father on my own terms but it’s taken me around ten years to learn how to and otherwise I’ve had to protect my mother and brother fro him, my mother is controlled by fear and he hasn’t beaten her in a while but he still fights with the both of us an I just don’t want my brother to emotionally go through what I had to at a young age yet its hard to explain to a nine year old why his father is nice only twice every two weeks now! Even when I was my brther’s age he didb’t drink a much as he does now. - written 1 year, 3 months ago
@deagonl_lady
I mean clearly the answer is to go but it’s not even not being in the mood it’s the fears, the fact I’d feel bad for imposing on my ever working parents and have to leave ny youger brother with my drunk of a father or being picked up by him while he’s smashed. Or even the fact it would give him sonething to fight over every night. Then I have a problen with other’s expectations, impressions, and judgment and I know I shouldn’t care about them but sometimes I just can’t control the paranoia. - written 1 year, 3 months ago
Genetically it’s supposed to harm you and mentally as well but I don’t think it can physically kill you yet your actions could cause or bring you harm. - written 1 year, 3 months ago