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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nm-1xv…

hear this one before?

Well, thanks :)

Upon first glance all seems fine, but anything by coin, is less then it seems.

Such a tower built and yet destroyed. Waters lit a flame. . .
What is this, a tear built of fear, still we long for a world of grace.

Just be you S, and never a wrong word will be said. Never more, or the less, then all you say. Dusk gives us all a shiver. *Tosses you a cloak

coin operated boy? well wouldn’t that be interesting. The ending to the song almost seemed a bit sad.

Sorry for my delays. I have a tendency to say the wrong thing so I give most replies careful consideration lol.

Like I said before, your poems are wonderful to read and speak from the soul. I would not be surprised if you became a famous poet :)

I wish to know what I would wish for. Then again you ought to remember your asking that of a suicidal person lol. I wish for peace of mind, however that comes.

One day, I wish to be counted among them.

What do you wish for S?

Silly poets and there constant words. lol

It does not mean I am not here. I am!

I am sorry for my delays, I am often writing elsewhere.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4gPZP…

I do love a good daydream. :)

:) lol I daydream just like that

I lie inside myself for hours, but these purple fields always swallow me up. . . am I dreaming?!

Yes, I know the song well.

Do you listen to evanescence?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7FZDk…

Yeah. I think my favorites from her are The Hand of Sorrow and Pale

Do you know “Within Temptation” ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=g…

hahaha

Sad has it’s place but all is not so.

Time to shake rattle and roll!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FPcA7…

Play loud!!!

yep..

The song reminds me of your friend. . . and things said and never said.

All the music I listen to is sad lol

A new adventure everyday? hmmm.That sounds nice.

Your song is sad. :’(

I am listing to your song right now.

I have never been to Maui but have always enjoyed islands.
I have jumped my share or falls but to be honest, doing so always terrified me. Fun and screaming all at once. ;)

My dream vacation is one I don’t ever have to come home from. I would like nothing more then to blend in and still find a new adventure every day.

Ooh, I like that song.

I went to Maui once. If I could choose one place to go it would be there, alone.. Hiking in the mountains and jumping off waterfalls. :)

What’s your dream vacation?

Indeed, A holiday it is then! Where would you go?

Right now I am listening to this -

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8hU8i…

A holiday.. wouldn’t that be nice.

right now, Flyleaf- Much Like Falling
What kind of music do you listen to?

Thank you for that. :)
All words hold meaning. . . There is nothing special about mine. Just words on a page S.
I say (and always have said) the meaning/interpretation comes from the reader.
It is you that decides truth from the rest.

I’ll take not bad! We all need a break from our troubles. Like a holiday! Fun in the sun.. lol

I always listen to music when I am online.
What are listening to?

lol, I love your poems. They are so deep and meaningful. :)

hmm.. Not as bad a day as usual. Just listening to music at the moment.
How about you?

Hi :)

Thanks for your replies to my post.

What’s up doc..How was your day? :)

Okay, new suggestion…
Talk to him S. If you feel better and contemplative for doing so, then I think it is doing you more good then harm.

I know what it is I am saying, and it is not easy to let someone in… But honestly S, life (like most things) is better shared.

I suppose I can just try and talk with him about it. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to vent :)

I write for a good few hours everyday. It does help some.

I don’t get to talk with him much, but I suppose it is unfair to try when I’m just going to end up making him upset.

I am not sure why he bothers me so much.. I just completely messed up by telling him about my last suicide attempt, he did ask what was wrong, I don’t think I should have answered, and I haven’t talked with him about anything personal since. But that’s what I had loved about our conversations. :(

I know he is just trying to help but it keeps me awake at night thinking about what he said and I have enough troubling thoughts. But when I tell him that, he is hurt by the lack of trust. but thats not the reason why I don’t want to bring it up..

I have 3 suggestions but I don’t feel any of them will be helpful.
Firstly, keep writing. It is a good way to sort your thoughts and vent. It doesn’t have to be poems or even anything that makes sense to anyone else reading it. It can be helpful just to get the thoughts out and in front of you.

Second, don’t agree to talk when you are tired and/or frustrated. From my experience, it never ends well for either person. At moments like that, you are better off logging out before saying a word or saying “good night, talk to ya later”.

My third suggestion is to find a way to sleep. I don’t know how you can do that but maybe your doctor can offer some ideas.

What is it about your friend that upsets you? Is he trying to help or is he trying to push your buttons? What is your take on it?

The inspiration of my poem actually lol. Around one in the morning my friend came on msn and wanted to talk. I started telling him about my insomnia and.. such before I even noticed what I was doing. He had caught me in the middle of writing and I was just completely focused on my thoughts. Honestly, I don’t even remember half of what I told him, I just saw the reply “So do you want to talk now?” and immediately tried to change the conversation. he wouldn’t let me. I was very tired and irritable.. and began snapping at him about not wanting to bother and then just logged off. His reply to that was “I don’t have time for a cat and mouse game, sorry”

I was not trying to be so rude.. Last time I talked with him it bothered me very much and is mostly the cause of my insomnia. I had done so good at blocking out my self destructive thoughts.. and he just had to poke and prod.. I don’t want him to be angry, but I’m not sure what to do. Any suggestions? :/

Sorry its so long

Absolutely

Can I ask for your opinion about something?
I am very bad with with people and seem to just keep making this situation worse..

No need to thank me. I haven’t said anything brilliant yet. lol

oh, I see it. Thank you :)

If you go to my help page, you will now see my e-mail is there for you to use.

Just in case you find words that you want to share or think of a way I may be of help.

I have to warn you though, I only check it about once a week.

?

I have opened my e-mail to you. Use it only if you want to. Who knows, maybe we could solve world hunger or something. :)

No, I was not trying to tell you to shut up. I just don’t know what to say about that. From my experience talking changes nothing and only causes more problems. I do appreciate you trying to help though.

That seems a polite way of telling me to shut up. :)
Seriously though, if you ever need an ear, I will gladly help if I can.

Don’t give up without a fight S!

lol. Well thanks.

How about try so you can be happy. So you own this life of yours and find a smile on your face.

As your friend, it is my job to do anything I can to fight the fight with you. How can I help S? Sword and daggers at the ready!

Well that’s what I was going to say…
I just don’t see a reason to try.

If you say “Why not”, I am so kicking your arse!

Why give up?

er, sorry. not trying to be depressing.

How was your day?

Giving up? I already gave up, I’m just waiting.