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hello. i don’t know if you still need someone to talk to you…but we can. whatever you want to talk about.

i’m sorry for your loss.

thanks…it’s nice to sometimes relate with others. esp. when i feel so distanced and detached.

You’re right. Suicide is not something to be laughed at or joked about.

I can’t get close to god. Probably because I don’t believe in one.

Yah. I understand that. I didn’t want to let him go, but in the end, holding on to him was seriously hurting me. I couldn’t control myself anymore. Finally, I just let him go. I don’t know how, but I do know that it probably saved me from completely breaking down.

I’m not in the best shape right now, as my posts prove, but I am still here, and I suppose I am still fighting.

I hope you figure out the right thing to do, and I hope it doesn’t break you into pieces.

I think you’re right. I’m hiding. But I have no idea what I’m hiding from.

I don’t know. Maybe an act of selflessness or more so…just let it go. Let it all go.

i don’t know what else to do besides giving up. i’m broken and hurt. there’s not much for me to do right now except escape. and if i did run, where would i go?

I don’t think there’s a way for you to help me directly, but if you can bring someone else back from the edge, even once, then you’re helping me indirectly, because I don’t want someone else to feel worthless or broken…to feel like they need to leave.

No…I don’t.

If I hitchhiked, I would surely end up hurt. I don’t really have a sense of self preservation, if you understand what I mean.

HOW DO I LEAVE?? I’m only sixteen. I don’t have a car.

I think either way, there will be tough times.

If you tell her, she may reject it because she’ll settle for the new guy.

If you don’t, you’ll regret it and dwell on “could have been” (probably. i don’t really know either of you so I’m making a generality. For that, I apologize.)

There’s no way for me to get out. If I had a way, I would be long gone. I wouldn’t look back and I would have no regrets…

I just want to stop fighting.