I ” want ” to exercise everyday, practice martial arts, quit smoking and drinking, eat only healthy food, start brushing my teeth properly, buy and learn how to use a handgun, ect…
But I just cant seem to find the desire.
Not having a friend, really gets to me.
I dont care if what i find, is a girl to play games with; or somebody to spar with…
I just want a friend…
I have not had a friend since I was 13…
( I hang with my female cousin, but being around her, just reminds me of all that im sad for)
I never meet anyone I have something in common with at her house…
I realize that I need to find a new place, to meet people. But i have no idea what to do.
I have thought about finding the local protest in my region, but ive heard its only 20 or 30 people.
I honestly, dont know what to do…
My life goal, involved, building an independant estate, with its own water electrical services, and farms…
if you would kindly read a few alternative news sources, you will find that the goverment, wont let me; just walk right up and build, what i want.
they dont want us, to clean our own water, grow our own food, ect…
I would end up in a legal battle, that i cant win…
Honestly, I think you should forget about me.
Im the only one that ‘can’ know, what i should do…
I just aint sure what that is right now.
Im waiting on God, for an answer, I guess.
I hope He is real. And doesnt mind me having less faith than I should…
Im going to try and figure out what I should do…
About the counciling thing; if anything, I should become a councilor… Im pretty good at offering advice/wisdom… I just cant seem to figure out, what a man in my position should do…
on one path, I can make great sacrafices, and help make the world a more wonderfull place…
down the other road, I can be a happy, run of the mill guy, with a wife and kids, and a career job…
Im not making a decision, because I am afraid of regreting it…
Anyway, you have a wonderfull duration of time; and thank you for listening…
(signed): A.K. [aka] Mother Futher [aka] Awn Aegisean [aka] Aaron…
(in case anyone I know is reading this… ) - written 2 months, 2 weeks ago
I wonder when the man in the suit will show up and tell me I owe a record company a million dollars for downloading 200 dolars worth of c.d.`s - written 2 months, 2 weeks ago
I was going to a church… But im too withdrawn to aproach people about things.
The only reason im sad; is because im shy. If I had more confidence, I would be just fine. - written 2 months, 2 weeks ago
