Me! The original account is Actingstar2010
2012-04-24 10:51:35 on What Highlights Look Good On Brown Hair?
[quote Wyyldfairy]lols i wenr red!! as in bright apple red! :P also went blue at one point too! but not so sure how good it looks with brown hair! :P[/quote]
2012-04-18 09:24:22 on not even in the sucidel line want to talk to me i been
I’m sorry, I don’t mean to beat this issue to a pulp and play the broken record, but do you really want to keep having breakdowns? Most survivors of child abuse/neglect find that it truly helps to talk about it. (I’ve been through it myself). And if you aren’t going to talk about it here or with a friend in person, professional help is the best way to get better.
You obviously don’t want to receive this help, but if you want to stop having breakdowns and have tried to make the situation better on your own, you need to ask someone other than us for help. Even then, it really won’t do any good unless you actually want to get better.
Sorry, again, for being insistent. I hope you find what you need.
2012-04-17 13:07:33 on Will I ever have the determination to succeed in school?
I just received a notice from the head of the board in charge of deciding my reinstatement; i either finish successfully at a community college or am not reaccepted to the school. But this is the exact opposite of what they originally asked of, not only me, but all academically disqualified students!
I am writing several drafts in order to keep fighting. I will not give up.
2012-04-17 10:35:28 on Will I ever have the determination to succeed in school?
The current courses I was taking aren’t. I’m waiting to see if I got back into the University I was originally attending here.
The people that are truly important to me other than my immediate family would be the man I’m in a relationship with, my best friend Liz, Julia, Rob, and Brent. They have always been there for me, and I them. Even though they aren’t all necessarily friends with eachother, they are my family. I want to discuss life and love, worldly views, even just silly things. I want to know everything about them I already don’t, if they are willing to share it. They are good people and wonderful friends.
Currently, where I am, I don’t think I am really embracing anything that makes me truly happy inside except for living with my man. All my friends mentioned above live in Southern California, and while I’m not ultimately pulled there, a part of me feels like I should be there. But I’m torn because the one I love is up here. Zack (my boyfriend) has said to me a few times that no matter what, he wants me to go for all my dreams and do what I believe will truly make me happy because he knows I wont have fulfilled my life until I do. And even if those plans don’t include him, he says he truly wants me to be happy, and I want the same for him.
Maybe it really would be better if I moved back home for a while….even though I don’t want to, could it be that that is what I need?
2012-04-17 09:29:29 on Will I ever have the determination to succeed in school?
1. I would move to NYC, go to school at NYU/work at a coffee shop and take my time to make it on Broadway. Do whatever it takes.
Oh, and cook. Alot. All the time. And buy amazing things to cook.
2. Take different people that are most important to me on different small vacations. Take time to meditate. Eat lots and lots of food. Cook amazing wonderful things. And set up something so that when I’m gone, I live on through something like a small business or a scholarship fund.
3. I felt best in theatre. Around creativity. Around people.
4. If I could master one of them, it would be theatre or cooking/barista. Eventually, theatre would probably be my final goal, but for now I’d love being a full blown Barista. If I mastered theatre? Made it to where I really want to be? I’d feel like I accomplished my dreams.
2012-04-17 09:12:24 on not even in the sucidel line want to talk to me i been
I understand completely not having the time, but if you really want to get better you DO make the time. Call on lunch breaks. Or before you go to work. It doesn’t matter if no one is there at the time, they will get your message and call you back.
2012-04-16 21:46:26 on heresay On a felony charge class C.
Please let us know the outcome!
2012-04-16 21:42:23 on not even in the sucidel line want to talk to me i been
[quote kevincol1]yes it did promosing, thank you so much, and yes i have to stop drinking so much, it only happends when im drinking by my self, because when i go out with my friends i never feel like that because im having fun, so im going to stop drinking so much and just have som drinking with my friend every now and then, i do get i have a problem, but its sad to say that most doctors dont realy get my problem, because of my past and life style, and i have tried to get professional help, but they seem not to care, so i try to help my self by getting to know me better, so i could fix my problem, because a person is like a building, and the foundation has to be strong in order, to keep on builind, and my problems comes from when i was little and if i dont fix that im going to keep on falling, so i dont know if i good idea but its all i have for now.. :)[/quote]
You are headed in the right direction! However, it takes time to find the right therapist, just like it takes time to find a good fitting pair of shoes, or a house, or even the love of your life. It takes a little bit of hunting. I strongly urge you to further your looking for professional help. I even thought I could do it myself, and you might be able to, but having someone there to listen to you no matter what and keep all of your secrets is a wonderful blessing.
2012-04-16 21:39:21 on Will I ever have the determination to succeed in school?
Pnov and Mums, thanks so much for the input.
I definitely think it is entirely possible that school could just not be the route for me - but I love learning! What truly makes me happy is understanding people through theatre. I love being in theatre, and I have always pictured myself in college. Here in the US, it’s hard to get a good paying job unless you have a four year degree, but you are right. I haven’t been able to pick something to focus on in a school style for four years.
Most of what bugs me about this is I really don’t know what to do. What next step I should take. And I’m not sure how to figure that out.
2012-04-16 10:31:55 on What’s the best way to move on?
[quote Dr. Jackson]Collecting things isn’t moving on, it’s only a crutch. If you hurt to see things with her, such as a new boyfriend, then you need to just cut it all off. Tell her you just can’t be friends with her, that it’s too hard for you.[/quote]
I completely agree. If you don’t want to “unfriend her” you can unsubscribe from her instead. That way, you don’t get any of that weird gossip about fake facebook drama, but you don’t have to deal with seeing how happy she is.
2012-04-16 10:29:28 on Will I ever have the determination to succeed in school?
I don’t mean to get all overdramatic at the end. I’m just sad and disappointed in myself. I want to do better, but I guess I still don’t know how.
2012-04-16 10:28:42 on heresay On a felony charge class C.
You could see if your lawyer can take it to family court instead. This is obviously something to do with what is going on at home. Or your sister could drop the charges.
2012-04-16 10:26:11 on Will I ever have the determination to succeed in school?
[quote scrnm2]i dunno. i feel like i knew that all the other humans were out to screw me over since the 4th grade. yup i been a fu** up ever since. so maybe never?[/quote]
I have this awkward thing where I hope that humanity will turn out better.
I want to succeed in school - but somewhere between want and actually doing so I get lost.
I am fine at the beginning of a semester, but I slowly drift away…
2012-04-16 10:23:11 on Poll: What help are you here for?
Definitely thought we could pick more than one. :P