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and what do you want out of life?

I don’t know what’s wrong with me… I started doing it too, just recently. Scoring lines into my shoulder… It feels like a burning sensation afterwards… I’m scared I’ll do something worse to myself. I want to stop feeling this way, I really do… but the only thing I can think of to make it stop is to sleep and never awaken… I’m scared of that too…

Aria is such a pretty sounding name ^.^
I vote for that. …it’s a lot like my name >.>

oh and congratulations :’)

worse?? worse in what way? I don’t really know whats in a root beer but if you’re on about pure content then I’d assume vodka/pepsi since it contains caffeine and a lot of sugar.

theres also vodka and redbull… stimulants and alchohol shouldn’t mix, shame it tastes nice…

if he or his partner were bothered then they shouldn’t have been playing. I wouldn’t dwell on it. And besides, you said you tried to avoid it and then he kissed you…
don’t worry about it.

probably should have broke up when he said he didn’t feel the same anymore. It’s not your fault though, he should have had the courage to tell you he doesn’t feel things are working instead of seeing someone behind your back.

no it’s not rude, i’m sure she’ll understand.

yeah, the battery gradually depletes, after two years the battery probably needs changing. If you search on ebay for the model of your phone it should have replacement batteries for a reasonably fair price.

that or take it to a phone repair shop and see if they have a battery that’ll fit

then tell him no, remind him that you discussed this already. If you give in or quietly allow it then it gives him the wrong impression.

it sort of sounds like he irritates you, and that you irritate him with stuff too…
this is a little thing, if you like him then just air it out next time you see him and then you can move past it. And by air it out, I mean the whole thing, the touching and being escorted home.

But first just take a little time to think about it… are these things really something significant? if you feel they are then you should talk about it.

don’t let them make you feel guilty about it.

okay i’ve a question for you… just bare with;

why do you watch it? do you enjoy it? are you just curious about sex? or… well.. why? you say you keep watching so what do you get out of it?

if you’re just curious then there’s plenty of information and sites that aren’t pornographic about sex and sexuality that aren’t pornographic.

…why does it matter to them if you are dating someone anyway, you could always tell them you didn’t want to say anything until you were sure there was something to it or not.
To be honest I’d be a secretive about myself if people expected to know every little detail of what I do or who I see.

That does make sense, Thankyou Dfeeds
I had been driving her off up until recently, being pitiful and wounded… I did resist contact for a few days and she did eventually contact me back, saying she’s sorry for acting harshly, wanting to cut each other off again, that she wants a little space. I replied saying I understand and will respect that.

I just wish she said that to begin with, I can get my head around wanting space, but thinking i was contantly losing her completely filled me with dread.
That was… 2 days ago, I haven’t heard from her since, I don’t expect to for a while and am again trying my best to let her come to me first.

you’re right that I want to remain friends to be more than that eventualy… But I know that unless I can hold her in my arms that I will never be more. So I do want to get better and use her as my motivation… till one day I can knock on her door and show how real I can be. And hopefully ‘get the girl’ as you put it.

*sigh* It just feels bad when I get that withdrawal feeling from not hearing from her. I’ve managed to stop myself sending her messages a couple times… It’s just exhausting feeling this way all time you know? I’ve no appettite, I feel tired all the time regardless of having just slept… and being left by myself for any length of time makes me start to unhinge and think about her. But i do feel like I suffer from depression on top of all of this, have done for a long time, seen doctors before but it feels like they don’t care because I’m reluctant to take pills. I guess I do feel something is wrong with me and I don’t beleive one doctor can say “take these twice a day for so long and you’ll be fine” when I’ve been this way as long as I can remember and need more help then a few pills. But it feels like no one cares, makes me more so reluctant to see someone/get help. But it’s getting to a point now where I don’t know what to do anymore and I feel more strongly that I just want to go to sleep and never awaken. And I know that’s bad… so now I’m going to try seek help again.

sorry for the long reply… it’s kinda half reply and half me getting my thoughts/feelings out… being truthful with myself.

They sound like vain people, you shouldn’t feel bad for wanting to push them away. Sure they may seem a little friendlier now, but they had no problems with mocking you before.