trentlover20's reply history at Help.com

[quote Anonymous]Yeah! you go girl - happy for you, it’s called growing up and living life My way … yes there will be changes, surprises, heartbreak and defeat. Step over all of it. You’ll be better for it.[/quote]

Thats exactly what I’m gonna do :)

[quote emerge]Wow congratulations, it’s great you feel excellent. :)[/quote]

There are still a couple of complications in my life I’m working on of course life is never without it’s problems but I just do not care anymore haha :D

We demand perfection that why we have struggles, the minute you stop caring about them and look at them for what they are and how they can be solved life gets so much easier

[quote manthynothing]Well it seems like you found yourself in a deep place. Time to find out what you want to do with your life now that you’ve seen everything with the blanket uncovered[/quote]

But what if we need that blanket? What if I’m just using it as an excuse to let myself spiral? Thatthe problem I don’t know anymore lol

[quote fřëëSöülëd]it’s going to be frequent. ponders like these will make you wiser.[/quote]

Thankyou it was just strange everyone else was drinking and dancing and I wrote this on my phone LOL

How about don’t kill yourself at all and seek professional help :) suicide is never the answer my friend, things become ****** for a while but they do get good again

You’re not going crazy you’re under a lot of stress

[quote michele_lee_perry]Awesome!!! Your friends must loooooove you lol[/quote]

I only have one friend, because I suffer from depression I experience extreme highs of happiness that’s the thing and because it’s so rare that’s what makes it so beautiful

[quote michele_lee_perry]I don’t go to the club. I have to have those moments in my house lol

But I get what you’re saying. What I do sometimes is turn out all the lights and insert a strobe in a lamp. Pump up the music and there’s a party right in my living room!

Maybe you could throw a party for your friends who are depressed.

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Maybe I should throw a party for all depressed people :)

[quote michele_lee_perry]Life IS beautiful. All of it. Even the tragic parts. Try not to worry about the end of your life so much, when you still have so much to do and enjoy. Take in as many of those sunsets as you can.

I’m a 43 year old Christian black woman with six kids who works as a clerk for the local government. Nobody suspects that I love laser lights and pounding electronic music. It IS primal….and I love it. That’s the last thing you’d guess about me but listening to it soothes me or gets me pumped up or both. I can’t help but dance, even if I’m sitting down. It paints pictures in my mind unrivaled by the most skilled and famous artists. My reality is different because I have it playing in my mind like a soundtrack as a backdrop to everything. Relish your ‘not normal’ ness

It’s awesome that you want to take what’s inside of you and give it to people who feel hopeless. I think that’s exactly what you just did.[/quote]

There is def something primal inside us that comes out of us when we’re in a club and we’re surrounded by music like that it goes back to our caveman days when we used drums or rocks to create music. I honestly would take those moments of bliss and give them to depressed people if I could.

LOL I’m obese and each to their own some men like skinny girls some men like chubby girls *shrug* if people say these things to you they’re prob jealous coz you’re skinny, being skinny is one hell of a gift, there aren’t many things I wouldn’t do to be skinny, my weight holds me back from a lot of stuff.

[quote AnExtendedHand][quote trentlover20] my boobs are quite sore [/quote]

yours and mine both.

On a more serious note, lemme know if you ever feel like you need someone to talk to.[/quote]

Thankyou :) seriously though they’re so sore its a joke :|

[quote AnExtendedHand][quote trentlover20][quote AnExtendedHand]I think a notable difference between your reaction and mine (and very possibly guys and girls in general) is that I turned my hatred and loathing against the people judging me. As you stated, you turn it on yourself.

I was a nerdy kid. I heard a couple things; I said to myself, “Alright then, I’ll be as good as I can be.”

I’m in shape, smart, and have a relatively good personality.

Don’t turn what people say to yourself. Use it as fuel to motivate yourself to be better. Start small, get some friends to support you, but if you seek it out, you CAN rise above.

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You just hit the nail on the head, I do turn it round to myself when I shouldn’t, I know it’s not personal when people make fun of and insult me but a part of me dies and what’s worse nobody understands or even wants to talk about it with me =( I feel like they win everytime because all I think is things that back up their insults, I’m obese, I’ve never had a proper boyfriend, well maybe one but it wasn’t long term and we never even had sex we just kissed, I only ever attract men when they’re drunk or I’m drunk, and I will most likely die alone with a thousand cats lol. My self loathing gets me down so much sometimes I feel like I can’t cope :[[/quote]

I’ve never had a girlfriend and never kissed a girl before, so you’re already miles ahead of me :)

Just keep rereading what I wrote it that gives you some motivation.

Best of luck! I can chat with you more later if you’d like :)[/quote]

Kissing someone is over-rated only ever done it when I’ve been drunk, same thing goes for sex lol as for my ex he ended up dumping me and left me more damaged than I was before I met him lol. Thankyou I really appreciate your comments =] maybe I should stop caring what other people think of me so much but I wish I knew how, I think I am def due on a period coz my boobs are quite sore and I’ve nearly cried twice today haha :\

[quote AnExtendedHand]I think a notable difference between your reaction and mine (and very possibly guys and girls in general) is that I turned my hatred and loathing against the people judging me. As you stated, you turn it on yourself.

I was a nerdy kid. I heard a couple things; I said to myself, “Alright then, I’ll be as good as I can be.”

I’m in shape, smart, and have a relatively good personality.

Don’t turn what people say to yourself. Use it as fuel to motivate yourself to be better. Start small, get some friends to support you, but if you seek it out, you CAN rise above.

:)[/quote]

You just hit the nail on the head, I do turn it round to myself when I shouldn’t, I know it’s not personal when people make fun of and insult me but a part of me dies and what’s worse nobody understands or even wants to talk about it with me =( I feel like they win everytime because all I think is things that back up their insults, I’m obese, I’ve never had a proper boyfriend, well maybe one but it wasn’t long term and we never even had sex we just kissed, I only ever attract men when they’re drunk or I’m drunk, and I will most likely die alone with a thousand cats lol. My self loathing gets me down so much sometimes I feel like I can’t cope :[

Marriage and kids are a distraction for some people or they do it to prove a point to the world and to themselves and so they can say in their own screwed up way say “yeah i made something of myself coz i have a husband and a kid” LOL. I’m 21 and I would much rather wait till I’m in my 30s to get married and have kids I wanna have a life first.