2012-09-29 09:49:39 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote Anonymous][quote trentlover20][quote Anonymous]
:D by get smashed if you mean drink alcohol that’s not good for you[/quote]
Yeah, still wanna do it though I get cabin fever when I don’t go out every few months I live in the middle of town so I’m surrounded by bars and nightclubs and I didn’t get a chance to explore the Lloret De Mar social scene =[[/quote]
i am happy you are an active socializer[/quote]
LOL not really active, I go out once every few months if I’m lucky back in my teen days though I was bang on it pretty much every week but as you get older binge drinking dies down and you don’t need to get smashed out of your tree to have a good time, I had a wonderful holiday and didn’t need to get drunk once :) sometimes you can appreciate the little things in life.
2012-09-29 09:44:43 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
:D by get smashed if you mean drink alcohol that’s not good for you[/quote]
Yeah, still wanna do it though I get cabin fever when I don’t go out every few months I live in the middle of town so I’m surrounded by bars and nightclubs and I didn’t get a chance to explore the Lloret De Mar social scene =[
2012-09-29 09:41:34 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote ozy shmozy]you’re above these people, and you don’t need them. you don’t need their approval, and you don’t need their friendship. you’re here to take the class and go. if someone talks to you in a condescending way, respond as if they have complimented you, or as if they confessed that they are jealous of your independence and experience. you’re quiet? oh yes, indeed, i’m not a chatty kind of person but i do talk when there’s something worth saying. you’re sitting by yourself? yes of course i’m doing my work is that a problem? people pick on people “on the outside” because they want to feel like they are on the inside. they need to tell themselves people on the outside aren’t good enough, because it validates their position in the social group. they are emotionally needy and dependent on acceptance and a false sense of validation to believe they are okay. take that away from them. being on the “inside” doesn’t make anyone special, cool, or happier. you’re god-darn content coming to class and learning info without pandering to the delusional needs of teenagers. you’re above them. act like it.[/quote]
I couldn’t have put it better myself :) IDK I will try and make a bit more effort I guess but I just don’t see the point coz they’re all so much younger and so inexperienced with life lol. Would be nice to make just one friend though. I just don’t get why she thinks I’m not being myself, I am quiet and boring in certain situations LOL I’m like Karl Pilkington I’m a grumpy moany old woman, I’ve had my crazy teen years, the hormones the unstoppable verbal diarrehoa the stupid mistakes etc I’m an adult now and I am who I am. I am content going to the hairdressing salon as well I have the most amazing tutor and I have a really nice counsellor, I am there to do the work and to make one friend to go on a night out with that’d do me just fine. I have 2 years to adjust. And I think you’re 100% right about how I should respond I wish I’d've thought of that yesterday but I was just so shocked and knackered from coming back off holiday. She lied as well about saying my tutor said I was in Cornwall which REALLY PISSED ME OFF because I love my tutor like a parent she is the best teacher in the world and pretty much one of the only things that gets me through it, so I’m gonna have a chat with my tutor when I go back on Monday and I’m gonna say she’s going round lying about her, why would she tell everyone I’m in Cornwall when she knows full well I was in Spain? Why is the girl causing agg? I don’t get it, in my adult state I almost feel sorry for her lol she has no clue about the real world or about real life.
2012-09-29 09:34:42 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
that’s great! :)[/quote]
Thanks, I also discovered that I get tips in a hair salon if I do really good work so it’s good to know money might be coming from somewhere =). Still wanna get smashed though hahaha :D.
2012-09-29 09:33:36 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote Lets Eat Rainbows]yeah thats the desicion i have to make, to report them or just leave. the only reason i havent decked this girl is that i want to join the army and i dont want to go to prison. im theyre elder too. its just a group of 17 to 21 year olds that are doing it but even a 30year old guy has joined in! he’s chatting them all up. he was on my side until he asked me out and i said no, now hes brown nosing them… people are so 2 faced.
idk why everyone now hates me. princess hayley came along and everyone fell in love and took her side. and she is so ****** stupid i want to strangle her. all i hear is bad behind her back but then i see everyone pandering to her every whim. she gets the good jobs and rewards when so does barely any work. im twice as fast as all of them and i get nothing
anyways, maybe you should just be as fake back to them….[/quote]
Just report them. It’s refreshing to know you’re having the same kind of issue I’m having except you’re having it worse but you’re struggling to cope with the immaturity that surrounds you and I have considered being fake back to them but there is something in my nature that refuses to be fake, it’s taken me 21 years to be the person I am now and even though I have many flaws, I’ve ****** up a lot in my life, I’m depressed and have a tendency to binge drink once in a while I’m happy with being myself, I am true to myself I’m not fake what you see is what you get maybe that intimidates some of them IDK but I couldn’t give two ***** it’s their problem not mine but of course in any environment where you’re working or studying it becomes your problem because you have to see and talk to these people day in and day out, ugh it’s SO ANNOYING these girls think they know it all just coz they’ve prob been abroad on their own, they have boyfriends, and they have **** jobs one of them was bragging about getting a job in Icelands LOL I was like “Really? It’s Icelands not Harrods” LMFAO. When I was a teenager I used to be as ridiculously open as these girls and it landed me in A LOT of ****, I had rumours spread about me (courtesy of me revealing a huge secret to everyone on my first day at a new school) people thought I was weird, I still see people who used to pick on me in school even now and it makes me feel like crap. Why has the 30 year old joined in? WTF has it got to do with him? LOL at 30 years old he should know better TBH. Sounds like they need to get a life and stop making you their whipping boy because at the end of the day you’re only human and it is bullying and abuse. This Hayley girl sounds like this redhead tard I have to contend with everyone all oggles over her (except the one chavvy girl and me) their heads are so far up her **** they can’t see anything else lol it’s just so silly there’s no need for it, my sister said I should try and be more chatty but WTF do I talk to them about? I haven’t got a bf anymore, I live on my own with my sister and her bf so I’m not coddled by my parents, I’m on a completely different wave length to them I’m in my 20s my interests are only what other people’s interests are in their 20s getting on it till I vomit, trying to scrimp and to salvage money in a British recession, and the dramas of everyday family life. These girls will not understand that until they are much older. The other thing that sickened me about the redhead was she kept BANGING ON about how she lives with foster parents, I lived my aunt and uncle when I was 10 coz my mum died but I don’t shout it out in the whole class, it’s pathetic and it’s attention seeking, there is something wrong with her I think nobody is full of that much energy and talks publically about masturbating at 16 years old LOL she must have retardation or something either way though she’s getting on my nerves and if I have to see her again I’m going to rip her disgusting braces out with a pair of pliers LMFAO.
2012-09-29 09:19:47 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
you are most welcome and i hope you are feeling better already[/quote]
Thanks I feel a little bit better apart from this rotten cold lol so no doubt on Monday I’ll have the flu to contend with as well as all these wannabes, just wish I could go get drunk in a club somewhere haha that’d be heaven I must sound like a right pisshead but IDC I miss my friend not seen her since last August :(. On the plus side though I’ve only put on 3 pounds (I thought I’d gained a stone since my holiday I am amazed) and I’m getting a new bath tub fitted in my flat as well as new taps :D.
2012-09-29 09:08:47 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
its not your fault okay please don’t blame yourself. how can anyone know their place so early at 21 its not your fault
thanks for replying and once again do not blame yourself for all this[/quote]
Thankyou Anonymous person :) I really appreciate it, and yeah I guess not many people do know their place at 21. The thing is a lot of ppl prob think I’m being snobby but I’m really not honestly, I don’t come from a royal background, I lived in a counsil flat for 2 years (not that I remember I was a baby) I’ve been friends and have hung around with the lowest of the low, druggies, prostitutes, *****, psychopaths I don’t look down at these girls in the slightest and I am being as friendly as my Asperges nature will allow me to be, but like I said I have been on holiday for a week which was the second week in which we started so how can they expect me to immediately be best friends with them when I don’t even know them? They can all do one.
2012-09-29 09:05:56 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote Lets Eat Rainbows]i know what you mean, i hate fake people too, but everyone else seems to fall under their spell and love being around them, i dont get it either.
im the user siren. its all on my previous posts. but basically my friend fell out with me coz i went out with a guy she likes. then she became ‘best friends’ with this girl that she was slagging off the week before.
then i reported a guy for sexual harassement and everyone took his side coz ‘he was only joking around’ his comments were hurtful and he would not stop talking about my boobs, (they are big) but they seemed to think it was ok
and then the girl i hate found out her bf was texting me, we were good friends. and he did text and flirt with me, we ended up sleeping together coz i hate her so much. and hes a massive scum bag cheat as i found out last week ( i knew he was a cheat, didnt think he was a scum bag tho)
shes been going up to every one of my friends telling them what ive done and completely slagging me off to everyone. now everyone believes her coz she acts so innocent and naive and thivk as sh*t tbh.
and now this guys been saying ive reported a manager coz i went for a job and everyones saying i havent got it and i supposedly reported him coz i found out from everyone else. completely untrue.
and then 2 people i thought was friends, i was trying to join in the conversation and one girls said ‘what are you doing?’ quite rudely and they both ignored me. i really dont want to go back. i have no one left there. and i cant handle it[/quote]
This makes my problems seem so small and insignificant, I’m really sorry about this people can be such pricks :/ I think you should maybe try and change position in your job or something I can sort of understand and condone you quitting your job, this is abuse and bullying, I’m getting alienation from the people I work with but not abuse they’d never dream of abusing or picking on me coz they know I’m their elder and I would fkn destroy them the only reason I didn’t rip apart that fkn ugly redhead yesterday was because I didn’t have the energy to and I just wanted to catch up and get on with my work, have you reported them? It’s harrassment, just ignore them and I’m sorry but if some bloke kept banging on and on about my boobs I would punch him, it’s disgusting and degrading to women, I know what it’s like to get the wrong kind of attention I had it a few weeks ago some guy asked me if I wanted to give him a blowjob in front of EVERYONE in a public nightclub I’d never felt so mortified and disgusted in all my life :(. I’d confront them about it because you’ve got enough backup and proof to do so, with the girls on my course it’s just petty but there’s no real proof they’re alienating me coz they are talking to me and in the eyes of everyone else they are “making an effort”
2012-09-29 08:59:36 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote Anonymous]sorry you feel so bad about this[/quote]
It’s nobody’s fault but mine lol, I just fail to fit in anywhere I still don’t know my place at 21 years old.
2012-09-29 07:58:11 on please help i’m heart broken what should i do ?
[quote willsmith][quote Lets Eat Rainbows]time heals all wounds[/quote]
I don’t know what makes you so stupid, but it really works![/quote]
don’t think there was any need for that lol. she’s right a break up takes time to get over
2012-09-29 07:46:49 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote Lets Eat Rainbows]lmao i know the feeling of wanting to smash someones face in.
sounds like you have friends out side of this course so just keep your head down n get stuff done. then party for the weekend. maybe add them on facebook and upload your party pics to show you can have a good time[/quote]
I have one friend outside of the college and I only see her whenever she’s available (she works all the time) that could be from once a month to once every 5-6 months, I don’t want to add these twits on facebook because they have better social lives and prob more friends than I do lol. Plus I never go on facebook, however the idea of rubbing my happiness in everyone’s faces seems like a good idea =D. And yeah this girl is so annoying I just hate fake people you know? People who are overly energetic are fine but when it’s to the point where they’re pretty much having a laughing fit over “how a bag of crisps smell like feet” when everyone else is trying to eat their lunch do my head in, I am a quiet person when I’m not in my comfort zone and I’ve been bullied in the past so it’s kind of stunted my confidence. EVERYONE keeps telling me I have a confidence issue, my ex told me, my family has told me, random fkn strangers have told me it’s just annoying bcoz when I’m on a night out I’m completely different I let my hair down and I could not give two ***** what anyone thinks (the copious amounts of alcohol helps haha) what problems are you having with the ppl you work with if you don’t mind me asking? You didn’t really state specifically on your post.
2012-09-29 07:37:00 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote Lets Eat Rainbows]
lol exactly what i thought, thats why i didnt want to quit, im doing it for my sanity. theyre just immature. stay out of there way and try to be better than them at everything. feel free to rub it in theyre face when your top of the class.[/quote]
LOL if only I could but some of these morons have already done Level 2 hairdressing so they’re already waaayy ahead of me, I just feel like saying to them “I may be quiet and boring but at least I can go out clubbing and drinking legally and I won’t get in trouble for it” haha. I’m doing it for my sanity as well, I’ve already whinged enough about this course for it to just go down the tubes, it would be so nice to make just one friend but everyone is so fake it’s hard to know who’s being genuine and who isn’t :/ 2 girls who I thought I was friends with on the first day alienated me and moved to another fastrack group. What is wrong with being introvert and quiet? I’m not always like this, when I’m clubbing or in a bar and I’m getting on it I’m completely different, I’m in my comfort zone and I’m happy, but I don’t feel in my comfort zone amoung these *******, the only one IMO who seems genuine is ironically the one who I thought would be the fakest out of all of them and is the most common (I’m not being a snob) and chavvy, she was one of the ones who asked me how my holiday was when I got back and she doesn’t seem to brown nosing any of the other girls she’s just getting on with them, there is a difference. Like I don’t see why me and this girl all have to hang out with each other at lunch why can’t we just go our seperate ways? We’ve got plenty of time to mingle and get to know each other in the salon? Really don’t understand :/. I said it was like school and this girl disagreed with me but it is, it’s the same division of groups, the same ostracization etc. And if that ugly piece of **** redhead who looks like big bird with braces talks down to me again I’m going to smash her fash into a wall lol. >=(
2012-09-29 06:41:05 on My post hasn’t shown up can ppl please give me advice on it?
[quote willsmith]why do some people have to always think on sl**ty terms.[quote Lets Eat Rainbows]did you mention anything naughty?[/quote]
maybe she just used some adult terms and it got hidden in the back pages[/quote]
That’s what I did I had a good long swear lol. I mentioned something about a girl revealing how she masturbates as well (this is openly in front of everyone baring in mind and I’ve known her for barely 5 minutes) maybe that had something to do with it, lol **** knows.
2012-09-29 06:36:32 on Not gonna lie I actually hate my life atm and feel like crying.
[quote Lets Eat Rainbows]wooooooow this sounds like what happened at my work. like, if you find a way to deal with this let me know. coz im done, im quitting.[/quote]
Thank God I’m not the only one going through this it’s doing my head in -_- I can’t quit because otherwise all this time and effort will be for nothing, and I’ve already invested so much money in it I have a counsellor I’m gonna go and see once a week and I have a lovely tutor I can talk to. I just need to rant, in life you do work with people you despise but I just find the ostracization really weird, and the way they’re all talking down to me, I’m their elder they should treat me with respect. I’m not quitting coz I’m not giving them the satisfaction, I just need a night out lol.
2012-09-29 06:33:43 on My post hasn’t shown up can ppl please give me advice on it?
[quote Lets Eat Rainbows]did you mention anything naughty?[/quote]
Nope just had a very long rant about how much I hate college lol guess I might have sworn a couple of times but I’m really upset ATM it’s on the list of posts you just have to go through it.