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• I’m having difficulties with my sexual identity because of my faith. posted (6 years) ago
  I have been raised and I believe that it is wrong to carry out my homosexual tendencies. After 53 ye…

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  Hey man, I hope you really want to and can do it. I am approaching my 54th birthday and I have been miserable my entire life because of my preference. I am NOT ugly and have a genuine personality which seems to have helped get me through the years. I have been in and out of the closet so many times I have installed a revolving door. Another thing that has kept bashers at bay is the fact that I am 6′ 4″, 210# and I don’t mind kicking some ***. But, in all sincerity, it has been a hellish road. I have been married, engaged to a great gal and boinked probably more ladies than you’ve seen in magazines but I can’t overcome the fact that dudes are really turn me on. I’m surprised I don’t have AIDS considering my sexual partners have easily surpassed 500 with no protection.
  You do however need to realize that unprotected sex is a no-no these days but most of my encounters were before the discovery of HIV and it’s partners. I was very active during the “Drugs, Sex and Rock ‘n Roll” era and mostly pregnancy was the BIG concern.
  Now, to the real issue. If you want to be straight because people are making fun of you then get over it. People will always make fun of you if you’re effeminate or FOUND OUT. No matter how careful you are people will somehow find out. People love dirt and being a *** is a biggie. If you are not comfortable with who you are because you feel it is wrong there is help, I promise. Otherwise, tough it out dude.
  I myself always thought there was something wrong with the way I was and never felt comfortable in my own skin. I suppose that is the key, being comfortable.
  All of you others can say what you will but BOTH God and society say it is wrong. How many of you have ever been discriminated against because of your preference. I lost a job after 22 years because I thought that it would be OK to come out considering I knew everyone so well. People are like Dr Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde once they find out.
  People, if you don’t know, don’t give advise or evn suggest that you understand because you don’t.
  - written 6 years ago

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