2011-01-08 08:06:21 on SOOOOO…if King Kong faced off Against Batman.
boobies woudl win
2011-01-08 07:53:20 on Would a teacher notice or care if they saw me getting thinner?
Welcome to self-destruction. Tell me, is that really the reason you are doign this? Deep inside? Cause I know its all weight, and calories and fat , and talkign about being thin and delicate and lookign good, but underneath, I think you do know that an emaciated body is pretty disgusting. And thats what youll look like, and still feel fat. Theres no stopping. And there’s nothign glamorous behind what you’re doing either. I think you realise it won’t make you happy, won’t make your social life better. Eventually I think you DO relaise that this only leads to nastynasty things. People run away from you or you run away form them. It alienates you. Loneliness like you’ve never experienced. Your teacher might notice, they might not. Probabaly won’t to be frank, until you suddenly get so thin you die.
But before you get to do that, a long long road of self destruction brings nothing but pain and ugliness. I do hope she does notice though, maybe you’ll get the help you obviously need.
There are better things to do with your life than fast. I know teh fasting “high”, trust me I do, but I also know the feelign of beign high off life, and THAT is much better. Because whatever is happenign in your life right now, will pass, but anorexia will probabaly always leave behind a part of itself in you. The longer you stay in this, the bigger a part of it will stay.
2011-01-01 10:36:50 on I am unhappy.
Talking about it might help.
2011-01-01 10:35:36 on I want to self harm.
I wrote up a really long reply and just as I hit post I crashed :(
hmm. I think You need a new coping mechanism: art, music, exercise, perhaps buy a punching bag and use that whenever you wish to cut. Eventually the craving will grow weaker. Whenever you wish to cut just remind yourself of how bad it will be in the long run.
perhaps theer is a friend of relative in real life who you could tell about this who would provide mental support for you and keep you strong?
WHY do you think you’re a bad person? is there any particular reason for this or is it just a constant feeling?
2011-01-01 09:56:20 on I want to self harm.
Aww dear, it sounds to me like a lot is being dumped on your shoulders all at once. But try to remember self harm is a really temporary solution. Sometimes you have to forget what you want to do to get what you deserve. And you deserve not to descend back into old habits and patterns, which i’m sure you know will ultimately lead to you beign even worse off.
You deserve to be happy, and you know how self harm tends to escalate, so please, do take care of yourself.
I wish you the best of luck in meeting your biological family and the boyfriend situation and the parent situation all, if you wnat to rant, we are here.
2011-01-01 09:45:30 on Too much death.
2011 can, and will be better.
2010-12-24 18:18:02 on Merry Kissmouse PPL!
merry merry mrs. Lazycloney
I hope the food situation clears up. you can ask some roommates to sell ya food? hmm
2010-12-24 17:48:03 on Christmas is here.
Aww, I am so sorry it had to be such a ****** year for you.*huge hugs* But remember that only a couple days remain and then you get to , symbolically at least , start anew. The bad experiences wont just go away, you have to learn to deal with them, however hard that may be. Eventually they might make you stronger. Bad **** happens to everyone but I’m sorry so mcuh had to happen to you in such a short amount of time.
I’m sure you do have friends, some you dont even notice around, and many people do care for you, I for one. If you need to talk feel free to rant at me anytime. GF/BF’s are overrated :p Plus the point is to have one you truly care about not just to settle. Give it time.
May this upcoming new year bring you soooo many better , awesome-er, beautiful, things and most of all strength.
2009-12-13 07:33:38 on The Past Decade :)
I obviously remember 9/11 and how excited I was when the new millenium started. The wars on terror , iraq afghanistan, bush etc. The internet taking over everything :)
2009-12-13 06:43:26 on The Past Decade :)
as in the years 2000-2010
2009-12-13 06:43:00 on The Past Decade :)
the 2000’s, this decade
2009-02-27 04:26:41 on .
Aaaactually no I forgot one more thing. You should be able to delete your posts, replies, or edit them.
2009-02-27 04:24:46 on .
Many people(long-term users who are known on the site as well) don’t have the courage to post non-anon sometimes. So anon is good. Spell check = awesome idea :P Its not that hard to add either, right?
Also. NOT more mods but BETTER mods. Which this site is sort of confusing a lot :/
Rules for mods. (!!!)
I love the homepage and profiles as they are ,I dont want this site to be turned into myspace or the like, I suppose its simple but good enough :P
2009-02-23 08:50:10 on CLOSED
actually.. Google generally as long as their name isnt too common :)FB too.
2009-02-08 08:46:01 on i am sad.
:/ I know the feeling. I really do. You have got to keep yourself busy busy busy so you dont think about it. Come and chat with anyoe, me for example to keep yourself distracted. You can always vent on me if you want to :) Remember its ok to cry and just get it out of your system.
Hang in there!