Xeno Dragon's shout trail with Fizz - Help.com

I guess it’s to do the best we can to help, even when no one seems to want to help us.

Yup, that’s what I know and why I haven’t been here. It’s not going to change. So what is the freakin point.

I’ve just learned to deal with it… it sucks, but there’s not a whole lot that can be done to change it.

Sorry, I haven’t been on. Just got sick of the crap around here.

Hey, I haven’t seen you for a while. I hope everything’s okay. Send me an e-mail or something.

Ah. Yes. I heard that just the other day. It’s never good when we lose a helper, but I can’t honestly say it surprises me either. He had issues.

Yes, but I didn’t want to bring it up. Scatt committed suicide.

True. Anything big?

I don’t have all day to tell you what you missed, lol. You’ve been away a LONG time.

I’m not upset, no worries. What did I miss?

Well? You’re killing me here!!!

Your not being around is getting old, I feel left hanging because I have no idea if you are still upset with me. Anyhow, where ever you are and whatever you are doing, I hope that you are ok.

I saw your last post and I wanted to respond, but didn’t know if I should after our last conversation.

I want you to know that I didn’t mean anything I said as a personal attack against you, I disagree with what you said, but we’ve been there before and I hope that we can get passed this one.

I also want you to know that nothing I said was in defense of those you were talking about, because I do disagree with their tactics quite often and I have talked to one of personally about their behavior.

I hope that all is well with you in the real world and I hope to speak to you again soon. Still very much your friend and I hope that you are still mine.

I would email, but a computer glitch stole your email addy.

Take Care!

I understand that.

Thanks, but it can’t be helped. The alternative is ugly, and I don’t want to be like that anymore. This is but a shade of how bad it can get.

I’ve noticed that you were being paranoid, you came off with me that way and normally I know you wouldn’t think the worst of me. Sleep deprivation is ______! Totally wrecks the brain and body.

I don’t believe in medicating kids for such things, I think that probably does more harm then good and in most cases I don’t believe in therepy, really only with in extreme cases and I don’t believe life long therepy has any benefit.

I can tell you what I’ve seen regarding self medication, but I can’t force you to agree. You are independent like that and that’s one of the things I like most about you. It does have it’s drawbacks though, you are stubborn! I was stubborn when I was younger and I still have a lot of that in me, so I don’t mean that as an insult. I think at times though it does you harm and I hate seeing that.

Well, as I haven’t slept in days, I’m angry, anxious, paranoid and I’m having trouble concentrating, I’ll do my best until I can get some more. But that’s all I’ve found that fixes it. Medications either don’t work on my abnomal body chemistry, or they cause bigger problems than they solve. I was on more pills as a kid than most elderly folk. They just don’t work. Neither does therapy, as I can see through everything a therapist does. I’m pretty cornered here, and I’m okay with that. I’ve finally found something that works perfectly.

I said better way, lol
Either way, I look forward to seeing you return to yourself. I don’t like seeing you like you have been. See you around and if you just need to moan, I’m a shout away.

No worries on that front. I’ve found the correct ballance. I’m just out of it, at the moment.

Xeno, find a better way to take care of yourself, you are VALUABLE!

Yes. It’s the only place for me right now.

You know there are programs, I’m not even going to argue it with you.

Other then funds, how are things going since you moved? Still feel good about the decision?

Due to lack of funds, it’s the only answer. I can’t afford anything else.

Oh that makes sense and explains a lot. Man, you are smart enough to know that self medicating isn’t the answer.

mild* paranoia

Well… Normally, when I’m on here, I’m high. I’ve run out, and now I’m having trouble controlling the bits of me that I don’t like. I have anger issues, an anxiety disorder, ADD, and insomnia, and mile paranoia, all of which I use pot to self-medicate. Normally, they aren’t a problem, but now, they’re comming out.

Things get complicated, I understand that. You’ve never given me any reason not to believe you, no conversation is going to change that.

Why wouldn’t I believe you? I might not always agree with you, but I’ve never found you to be untrustworthy. I’m your friend, you can choose to trust that or not. If you want to talk, here I am, if not, I’ll continue to worry about you!

Again, after the conversations we’ve been having, I doubt you’d believe the real reason.

I noticed that, you don’t have to tell me anything you don’t want to, BUT I would really hate for you to lose those qualities that I find so endearing and that is what I see happening.

I’ve been more cynical lately. If I told you why, I doubt you’d believe me.

Maybe it’s just me, but you haven’t seemed yourself lately, not that we’ve seen much of each other, just here and there.

Everything alright with you?

Oh Xeno, lol

My appologies. I’m not all there at the moment. We’ve been having fun with helium.

I wasn’t talking about you, I know darn well that you are straight up!!!

I don’t use people. And I don’t have an agenda.

Seems at least in part you stepped into something that you weren’t fully aware of what it was all about.

I’m not even sure I completely get all of it. There’s a part of me that thinks I’m getting played for someone elses agenda and I won’t stand for that. Maybe that sounds sort of cryptic, lol.

Anyway, I just felt weird the way things were left and your friendship means a lot to me.

This might help explain a lot of what was said on Spunky’s post.

http://help.com/post/139373-if-you-ne…

Well, that was an unexpected turn of events.

Conflicting schedules we rarely speak much, hope all is well with you! Later!

Hello.

Hey!

No need for thank you’s that’s what friendship is all about!

Again, thank you.

I’m glad you know that I care, regardless of my off hand comment. Also glad that you and your friend have worked through things. Friends are such an extention of ourselves that rifts can be so hard to overcome. Shout if you need me.

Lol, no, it’s me. I’m just using a different computer, and I’m not used to anything but my ’sploded laptop, so I’ll be a little slower than normal.

This was the first fight he and I have ever had, and after knowing eachother for as long as we have, it hurt all the more. It is resolved, though, and we’re okay now. Thank you for your concern, though. It means a lot.

Is this you or a cheap imitation?

Glad your account was raised from the dead, lol.

What a little jerk to do that to you, not a friend at all Xeno.

Hope you’ve had a chance to change all of your passwords.

What the heck is going on?