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bye, it was nice to have bumped into you a few times — if you ever come back here or anywhere I am, I’d feel just as honored to interact with you. :)

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I haven’t seen you in ages!!! How are you? :)

hey
just thought i would drop by and say hi ^_^
hope life is treating you good
anywayz take care
good luck with everything

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hey girl im back after much time away n soul-searching…u doin ok?…Will

Hello, I happened to stumble upon your post when I was researching Plato’s quote about being kind. Your Love Help and Feel Help posts are breathtaking in their depth and insight. I work with a lot of inspirational writers and speakers, but I was very impressed with your precocity. Keep posting. People need to hear more words of wisdom. I wish you had a bigger audience.

you’ve been not here so long… I want to say one thing — I remember you had some question about a friendship/love-interest you had… and I said,”if such-and-such is the case, you should go away from it.” .. and then soon you happily had a boyfriend — just want to apologize if that’s the person I said you should go away from — sometimes judgment from so far with so little data is really inaccurate. that’s all, and hope life is great. :)

so wht u do?

woooooooo.. u looks nice

Happy New Year! Like I have always said, you are just beautiful! Love ya!

Where have you been gorgeous?

Thanks for taking the time to respond to that relationship confusion question. Some of these people are perfectly willing to talk with me about whatever but I just don’t feel like the right person to talk to beyond a certain point. And you were obviously perfectly right in some ways.

perhaps… i’ve been accessing this site under the radar for a while now, i think it was only a matter of time before a motherly old moderator deemed the content of my posts inappropriate. it’s fine though. maybe i HAVE been on this site too long anyway.

time to indulge once more in the real world… ;)

i’m leaving Help now…trust Jesus as He is a friend who will stick by you 4ever…Will :)

hi! well, you sound like quite the artist! yes, i have to make time for my painting - since i work doing other stuff - i have found that i can get in short sessions more often if i prod myself to do it - evenings and rainy days are usually good.

i started out out doing the very technical, precise paintings you’re talking about, using a grid method to scale a photo onto a canvas - i have gotten away from that now, and i have moved into a more expressionistic, edgy style - i like it better - thanks for talking, you are a very nice person - i hope your day and weekend are filled with joy and love…Will :)…

thanks…i did miss talking with you - im glad you are happy with your friends - sounds like fun! how’s the art and biochemistry coming? im painting more and more - experimenting with different styles…i love it…Will :D

hey, girl, haven’t heard from you in a while - i see you are online - how are things going with your new friend? i hope the best for you…Will :)

By the way, I have a daughter the same age 19 in Dec…also beautiful and intelligent just like you :-)

I invited two people that give wonderful insight and help on this site,you can always talk to them or invite them to the post yourself, Ive got to know them by their replies to posts in the time Ive been on here, nothing on help is really private hon, its a very open site,people can read your shouts and posts, the only way on the posts is to be anon and to make sure you click the button before each reply you make.Its the one thing I dont like about help, is the lack of privacy to talk out your problems. I belong to another site which has the option to stay in a private chat, not everyone I agree wants to talk in an open forum. The right to close your post is completely yours hon, the two people you may find have some good input are Richard Cor De Lyons and Chev Jame. They are both older adults and full of wisdom. I’m sure they wouldn’t mind leaving some input if you invited them to the post, or even shouted them :-)
I worked for a Crisis center in England and have dealt with a several abuse cases, my thoughts in your thread came from knowing a little of what these children carry with them into Adulthood. Good luck in whatever you decide hon, if you need help Im always around, just shout me. :-)

Iamozy, thank you for a thoughtful response to my post on God last night.. I wish there were more thinkers like you.. Do you remember a band called Jethro tull.. They wrote a song called my God… It basically underscores what you wrote.. We humans created A God……..Not to say there isnt a creator but humans created a God and gave God human charateristics…..Sad how 95%of the population bought this kind of kindergarden type of thought on such a important issue…Stop by and say hi. Rob

iamozy - just checking in with you - how are thinks going with your new friends, etc. - hope u r well!…Will :)

you know, i think you are one of the few people i actually don’t think i WANT to control. you’ve always been very aware of me and aware of how and what i do. that’s how i came to suspect that you were like me in some ways. but you’re a very good person with strong convictions, and you know i always admire that.

as for demons, i know not of which you speak.

Argg! No, that didn’t work for me either. That’s what I had done before. This time, I even zoomed in on the map and tried putting myself in the middle of downtown Dallas, and it STILL says “location unknown.” But thanks for the info - maybe it has something to do with the IP address - who knows?

u r a very nice person - i was friends with a girl once and we went out but we both new it was just friends - no sparks or anything - i remember we kissed after a date because we thot we needed to. wow, nothing from that!!! but we learned not to force it and to be friends… - i work on a computer at work - but painting is my passion - if i cud, id do that for my career!… gtg now - football game coming on soon - take care and talk my ears off anytime u want, seriously!…Will :D

ok i copy/pasted it - actually i like to hear people talk alot when they say happy things like u do - i cud listen to that 4 a long time - it winds up making me more happy! so keep talking if youd like. im happy 4 u with your new friends and your guy friend too - i know that he is and will be very happy and blessed by knowing u! so hes had a lucky break too! i hope that things work out and u 2 become very close! im not in college now - i work and do oil paintings in my free time…:D

if not, i can retype it

hi, silly me, i sent my shout 4 u to me - can u read it?…Will

im fairly new i guess - sometimes on and off - whats your lucky break if i can ask? i cud use one of those myself!…:)

thats ok - me 2 - been busy. im good - and u? :)

Hey there. How on earth did you get “Dallas, TX” to show up by your name on this site? I placed myself on the map (I also live in Dallas), but it still shows “Unknown Location” by my name. When I saw you had a response to the post on Littleneck, I thought “there’s my chance to ask someone - yea!” I searched for posts on this issue, but had no luck finding an answer. Thanks so much!

you feel it itching, don’t you? manipulation is an addiction that is hard to get rid of, iamozy.

hey, iamozy, whats going on? i hope u r having a fantastic day! - just want to say ‘hi’ …Will :)

Are you the one wanting to get your nose pierced? I hope not! You’re too pretty for face jewlery!

no. being the way i am is not a decision. it’s a compulsion and a convenient excuse. even if there were no people i’d like to inflict on animals. why i have no remorse? because it doesn’t really effect me. what happens happens, it’s just as simple as that. i had no attachment to the object, so why should it matter to me if it’s alive or dead, or in mental or physical pain? if i were the one who inflicted it, i more than likely enjoyed it.

i do not hate people, i am just sick of them. they have so much potential. so much potential to be beautiful, be different, be fascinating, but they push it all away. read these posts here. these people have so much potential to be powerful, but they trade it for security and stable ground. pain and hopelessness is all they know, and it’s there that they feel at home. they could help themselves, they could help other people, like they claim they’re so fond of doing, yet all they do is selfishly dig themselves deeper into that tar pit of theirs and hope they never really have to change. SOME days it all gets through. by some fluke or miracle of nature SOME one figures out how to step out of the mire, but one man in a million can only do so much.

people were not made to be this weak. it’s just that nobody has realized this yet.

that’s why people keep saying this world is fucked up. that’s why kids are killing kids, mothers are killing their children, and students are killing teachers. that’s why so many people die every day, it’s nature’s way of trying to flush all the waste out. we’re polluting our own minds, twisting them in shapes we think are better for us and in the back of our minds we begin to hate ourselves for it. that’s why there’s so much hate. that’s why we hate work, we hate school, we hate our enemies, we hate our friends, we hate the people who look different from us, and we hate the people who look the same. we hate people we know, we hate total strangers, we hate our own fucking selves. look at this sight. you can feel it, the sickness seeping through every page. you can feel their pain. their pain of self-restraint, their pain of guilt and self-loathing. their pain of excusing someone who’s hurt them, the pain of the knowledge that they’ll do it again, and that they’ll keep on coming back. the pain of knowing that you can’t help these people, the pain of knowing that someday you will die and be worthless, the pain of knowing you already are. of knowing you’re lying, of knowing nobody believes you, of knowing nobody cares. the pain of a crushed relationship or the despair that no others can form. there’s a hopelessness all around, even here. that’s just how people are. and i have yet to see that change.

yes, i would. and if you were to ask me why, i would tell you it’s because i like to see beautiful things destroyed, it goes no further than that.

i’m the worst? maybe. at least i’m not deluding myself. throught the lies that we blissfully sink through every day in order to keep our minds in check, at least i’m not telling myself i’m something i’m not.

that’s what everyone seeems to do. even you. you’re very consciouseness lies to you so you can live with yourself, so it makes better sense. you try so hard, i admire your effort, but when your person knowing commits a lie it begins to self deteriorate.

you know how it is. the bad people always pretending they know what they’re doing, like they don’t believe they’re doing bad, and the good people pretending the same thing. even with the most truthful person in the world, there’s a horrible lie hidden somewhere in the back of their mind that eats away at their soul. and it wouldn’t make a difference, the offence against “the truth” wouldn’t make any difference if they would stop trying to convince themselves that they’re something they’re not.

i’ll give them an A for effort, though. they sure do try. but they try so hard they break their own backs. they pull and heave until their sweat plasters their hair and clothes to their skin. they slave away until the beating sun burns them blind, and then finally they stagger away in defeat, only to direct their children in the correct direction to take up this self-defeating task. it’s pitiable. but pity is not tolerance.

how insightful of you.

of course, you’re right. but the fact is, i’m not searching for people at all. i’m searching for the world. i’ve had enough of people. didn’t find too much there. the only shit i discovered was dried and decayed, passed down through the centuries caked with greasy residue, sorrow, and despair. people twist beauty into some unrecognizable. all because they think it will make them feel better.

methinks you are reading waaaay too much into this one, girlie.

what i would like is to meet a person who is perfect. none such exist. therefore i don’t like people.