Christina Sponias's shout trail with Believe - Help.com

HI Christina - I have more information on the dream - I allowed myself to get thru a good portion lst night.

I saw the people being tortured- all women age ranges from very young girls to adult women.

They were being tortured by all men - from teenagers to adult males.

here is the gist of what I think it means - I think I am reliving much of what happened to me in this dream and I have to figure a way to forgive those that did the harm so I can move on. I thought I forgave them but maybe I only think so.

My father molested me as a young child when I was 4-5 years old. It ended when I told him I didn’t want to see him anymore and he committed suicide (he was found 2 weeks after he died and had been dead for about two weeks - after I last saw him/told him that). It still weighs heavy on my mind.

At age 16, I was gang raped by my boyfriend and several of his friends.

At age 22, I married a man and suffered 18 years of physically and emotional abuse.

I don’t trust men. Recently, I made friends (platonic) with a man I met during the time of my divorce. He was actually the contractor working on my house at the time. We slowly developed a friendship over time. He had nothing to do with the divorce. He is though the kindest, gentlest, man I have ever met, yet I still am leary of moving our friendship forward. he knows my history and understands. he is patient and understanding. We are just friends, we have never crossed any lines of integrity/morals.

It is the only thing that can come close to a temptation that you speak of, yet again there has been no compromise to my morals (Ok honestly, I have THOUGHT about sex with him many a times but it is only in my mind).

I hope your trip is good - is it for work or holiday?

Thanks again for your help, it is very much appreciated.

Thanks Christina, I struggle with this as I consider myself to be a person of high standards and integrity. I have been faced with many challenges to my moral standards and have never went against my morals. I have been tempted, oh how I have been tempted, but I never let myself lose control.

Just so you know I am 40 years old with 2 children.

Thanks again for your help. I wish you safe travel.

Talk to you when you get back.

thanks for you help again!

HI - took me a minute to find your response as it’s in your shoutbox instead of mine. Takes getting used to these shout boxes.

My exhusband is very much alive - it’s my fatherinlaw that died after the dream.

I have been under a lot of stress in 6 months in sustained a head injury, my brother was diagnosed with stomach cancer, I got divorced, and I faced my childhood past of being molested by my own father who later committed suicide.

Could that have anything to do with it?

Hi - thanks for offering to help me with my dream. Actual I call it frightmares. I have had this reoccurring dream that seems to grow as I age. It is to the point I no longer want to sleep for fear it will happen again.

I should let you know that I have dreams in which I receive warnings about people I love and they are usually “true” within a few days. Ie: I had a dream where my father in law was taking to me and playing with his ear and kept saying problem. He was elderly and not very coherent. I asked my exhusband to have his ear checked out - turns out he had skin cancer on his ear lobe. 2 weeks later I dreamed he was trying to talk to me but couldn’t breathe/catch his breath. He died from pneumonia two days later.

So, anyway, here is the dream I keeping running from -

It is a very dark circular room with approximately 20-30 people (faceless/no identity) who are being physically tortured by other (facelss/no identity people). I am either hovering above watching or hiding behind a column.

I literally feel the pain of the tortured - burns, hit with nailed boards, etc. I wake up with the awful sense that I was the one being tortured but I don’t see myself receiving such acts.

I hear, see, feel, smell, and taste in my dreams. This one is intense with all five senses.

Thanks.