blackee92114's reply history at Help.com

This is a shout out to The King Of Spades and beepbeep. Thank you for the the replays. I do appreciate the advice. I started a post and I wrote about 600 words and then I did a spell check and I accidentally hit backspace and it disappeared. Can you tell me if there is so I’ll know what to do if that happens again. Is there a way to retrieve it or is it’s lost never to be seen again. So I’m not going to write everything I lost. But> Yes I need to see them. She called and that was great. Her mom is in Tennessee, and recently got married, and that’s what got her to call me. Her mom is the only family she has in Tennessee and when they got on a fight she felt alone and I guess started to say, hey I have a dad out there some where. So she call me. Hey I’m going to continue this tomorrow. I need to lie down. Get out of this chair. I thank you again for the input. Blackee 92114

Hey, thanks again Oster, I would like to say something to beepbeep, but he’s gone. What’s up with that. Is it something I said, just kidding. Hey there JUST K, beeper, rlt7. This is my shout out to you guys. I got some great news. My daughter that I haven’t spoken to in over 5yrs called me. And not only did she call me, she called me Dad. Dam that was good to hear. I also have a 5yr old grandson that goes by the name of Christoper. That’s great. I little life that I have an paternity to meet. She said she would like to see Blackee & me. So that gives me an excuse to get out of California. She’s out there in Tennessee. Wow! I haven’t been on a plane in a long time. Last time I was on a plane was on my 40th B-day. That was 7yrs ago. It was the first time Black or I have been on a plane. We went to Vegas. It’s a good memory. When the plane took off my poor Blackie, she was being pushed down into the seat. Good thing there was no one sitting next to us so I was able to put her chest up against the seat. So I’ve thought about driving. The train. And the plane. The plane is the cheapest of all. Although she needs a car, so I thought I would give her mine. Well bad idea. It still would be cheaper to fly out there and buy her a cheap car. Why cheap. Her first car I so happen to buy, and she wreaks it after only three months. Then she tells me that she bought another car, and I don’t know how long before she wreaks that one. Oh she tells me it wasn’t her fault. Insurance bought her another car. So now she has this new car and what happens, yup, she wreaks that one to. So I’m not going to buy her a new car. I’ll get her a big old Oldsmobile. That way she shouldn’t get hurt. It felt real good to tell her that I no longer drink. She had to ask me twice You did. Really. And it was a feeling I’ve not felt ever. Yes, now I can pat myself on the back and feel proud when I say “I Quit”. Yes it’s hard, but that feeling I had when I told her I quit was, well, worth it. Well I’ll check in tomorrow. See what’s up. Clicking out, Robert

Hey there. Gosh I haven’t seen your mail. I go into my mail but I have Help go into a folder and I just didn’t see the three messages that I have. That’s no excuess. I’m sorry, I will make it up some how. Thank’s for the replys. Now let me go read them!

You guys are so right. I, believe it or not but I do learned from past mistakes. And I learned not to believe that I could of won a lottery through the mail, that should of been a red flag right there. I didn’t recognize it off the top. Well I did, I just wanted it to be true when I knew it just wasn’t true. Me and my wishful thinking. I forget just what this computer can do for me. Thanks to Oster, and to beepbeep. I can learn so much from your experiences. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again I like this Help.com and the wealth of knowledge before me. I am a novice in this field, of computers that is. And I wish, but why wish, I have a computer in my life now and I’m hooked. I was going to say I wish I would of gotten into computers sooner. But I have one now so… Goodnight sleep tight and don’t let those bed bugs bite. Clicking out.

Yes I have been to many AA meetings. And thank you for your help. I’ve notice you help so many people. You must be an awesome person. You have helped me before and for that I thank you again. I believe you turn me on to that 30 day trial period of file maker. It’s about to expire in two more days. I do like file maker and there is so much to learn and 30 days is just not enough time. Does anyone have the cd that I could barrow and then mail it back. Can I do that ask someone for a cd of other programs or does someone read this and flag it because I’m taking advantage of the system. I mean file maker is trying to sell me their product and I’m trying to see if someone has one that I could use to download to my computer. I not a business yet? Yeah, like I may try to start a business. I know I could, but not at this point in my life. I haven’t come close to finding out how I could use it in what I do. I needed it to open some mail attachments, and I used it to make a document of my cars and started to see just all what it could do. I found it intriguing. But is it wrong to ask. Anyway, meetings. I was really into meetings at one point. I volunteer at Volunteers of America in the detox program. And one day they ask me if I would run the meetings when I was there the three days out of the week that I volunteered. I said sure. Then I had my own meetings that I would go to everyday at 7:00am. I would be there never thinking about drinking or the fact that I was getting up so damm early. Now I think back and say wow I did that. It take me no less then 45 minuets once I drag myself into this chair take my shower and get dressed then get back into this chair. Not that I’m complaining but it’s a chore. And I do realizes just how lucky I am to be able to transfer in & out not just the bed or shower, but the car,the van. You know as I’m writing this I’m impressing myself with my ability’s. I forget how lucky I really am being independent, although sometimes I wish I weren’t only because I’m getting tired of taking care of myself. Ten years now. It would be nice to do meetings again. I’ve became a lazy hermit when I stopped drinking.

I’m Robert, and I have been on a bum road, I guess I’m depressed and I seem to get lost. Lost. I don’t like this day. Father’s Day. I’m a father, not a dad. I don’t get phone calls from my dauthers due to Me. I’m forty-seven years old and I’m still a jerk! I don’t blame them in the least. They only know the alcoholic Robert. And they haven’t met the sober Robert. They probably never will. Yeh I’m Lost. Lost in my sarrow. I’m what as somone told me, a dry drunk. But I rather be a dry drunk and not drunk. I only have seventeen months not drinking. Yeah 4 me. Me the dry drunk wants my dauthers back in my life now, but that’s not meant to be. So here I sit getting more depressed. Today’s almost over. If any one know’s them give them a shout out. Monica Racheal Haro twenty-eight from San Diego, she has my to grandauthers Chrstina & Gina, & Andrea Marie Lopez from Franklin TN, shes twenty-three, and my grandson Anthony. They don’t like me for sh_t, because I did not raise Andrea, she was adopted from me when she was three, for two reason. Her mom got married and I tried to contest the adoption, but I did not have any chance to contest it because I had not paid child support for over a year. My excuess for that was I never wanted Barbara to get pregnant in the first place. That’s what I deserved. Now Monica is a story to tell, and I’ll tell it at another time. But I start by saying this, her mom droped her off at a house that I was only renting a room up in LA and I was drinking wine not beer at the time. I was not meant to be a single father at that point in my life, and for the year that I had her I should have gotten legal costody at that time, and things might have been differant. Maybe I would of could of sould of stoped drinking, but I didn’t and I was a horrible dad. I,m done for the time being. Hope I didn’t bore anyone with why I don’t like this day!

Sorry it takes me so long to say thank you,. i was able to open my attachment with filemaker! i opened a bundle of files. now i have other e-mails that i can’t open. the fp7(4.64… was easy to open as soon as i downloaded filemaker, i guess because of the code, the ones i can’t open say .email…and when i try to open it i get this message stating that i don’t have a program associated with this to open & to go to folder options to create one, were is folder options at? or can i create a program or do i need to download something else; help also filemaker is awsome but i need to go to school just to learn how to use it (haha) i’m not kidding, there is just so much to learn, it’s like word, i started learning word through trial& error,and there is so much to learn in word.what i know so far in word i learned by screwing it up with formating & styles, like i said before i learning as i go, i’ve just got this computer in april.so hear we go agian wah wah’ thats gona be my sign off from now on.

Those are words that are so easy to say, but to follow through, not so easy. I wrote you a good story of myself but then I hit something and lost it all and I’m pissed. I’ve been getting pissed alot lately. I hate nmyelf for who I am and what I did to myself ten years ago. I was living in squalor in downtown San Diego, got off of work and had some beers, not sure how many, and around 11:00pm I decided to take a ride on my bicycle to where I don’t know, but I