Mini-Profile
I…uhhh, well I wish I wasn’t so depressed all the time. There is a surprisingly fine line between being over dependant and emotionally closed, at least with regards to other peoples’ perception of you. I have been called both. Everyone has a breaking point mine just happens to be a slightly less tolerant one than most people. I don’t think it is my fault, but blame my self for it. I always blame myself for issues in my life…I’ve run out of other people to blame. I am a lazy bugger, and really wish that I wasn’t, but that particular flaw appears to transcend the realm of personal proclivities to the matter, or at least active intent regarding the demonstration of such a persona, or genuine enaction thereof…either way, its my fault…who’s else could it be. In case u hadn’t realized, I don’t like myself very much ;) I wish I did though. I wish I wasn’t so sensitive…but I am. No need to wish…evidently, because they very rarely come true, at least for me, or at least in my perception…but isn’t perception the fundamental nature of experience. Ironically I don’t actually like being depressed and make a wholehearted effort at appearing quite positive. I wish it worked. I also don’t like depressed people all that much, because they are far too similar to me, and I like myself even less. I often think they are emotionally weak, or just crave attention…like me. Isn’t an insatiable thirst for attention a weakness by disposition and can one really be blamed for an inherent weakness? As I stated above though, who else is there to blame? If you’ve already read this far, then you either genuinely care about my sorry state, or are just bored. If it is the former then don’t…I don’t, apathy is far more comfortable than sadness, which is the inevitable outcome of caring about me. If it is the latter then, go out and help someone like me. Hopefully they won’t succumb to this circumstance. Then pat yourself on the back, because you deserve it. As far as I am concerned, to perpetrate is human, to aid…divine. Sorry Shakespeare, hope you don’t hold a grudge. If you think I sound in anyway interesting however, do friend me. I can always use a new friend. I love that I can stay anonymous on this site…if anyone actually knew who was feeling this way; they might be rather shocked to find out who it really is. As tends to happen, I am not quite who would be expected. Have a nice day…god bless.
Where did you grow up?
Capetown
Where do you live now?
still capetown
What is the highest level of education you have attained?
not important
What subjects did/do you enjoy the most at school?
even less important
What's your favorite sport or sports?
I guess cricket
What kinds of jobs have you held? Industries too!
define job...
What hobbies are you into?
define hobby...
What causes are you concerned about today?
far too many to mention
If you claim a political party affliation, which is it?
I suppose the Democratic Alliance
Which religion (if any) do you follow?
Christianity