I’m not sure what you think I’m unsure of in myself. I’m sure of my gut and my instincts. I’m sure of my abilities that I’ve spent years working on. I can be unsure of things, sometimes I’m unsure of my future and my place. I’m sure of my beliefs and judge of character.
And guts in what situation? I do the things I must do whether I want to or not, I get scared and close up sometimes, yes. I have enough guts for me. Confrontations, whether it be with wild animals or authority, so far I’ve dealth with them both somehow.
And broken hearted, I’ve a right to be.
Tough question.. but in short :
First : I did not dislike my Ex. I loved her. Way too much.
Second : Pain was only a by-product of a whole stupid situation created by the general world, embraced by my ex, and fought by me.
So, bottom line, although painfull, Love can still be called Love. And bad memories fade by time.
And about you, although you remind me some of her, Sorry for any pre-judgment, forget I ever sad that, and It just happens I stumbled upon you, and kind of liked the whole idea.
Why would you want to be friends with someone that you dislike so and reminds you of such painful things? And do I come across as ‘unsure of myself’ with ‘no guts, no confidence’ and ‘kind of broken hearted’? I really don’t think I am… I am having a bit of a down day, so maybe thats why.
It sounds kind of strage to be in a relationship just to rescue someone from themselves… did she know thats why you were in it?
I don’t want to throw anything in your face, sorry if I’m coming off a little short.
Anyway, by me now is 2.30 in the night. I get up at 6.30. I have a pretty stressful desk-job, many things depend on my mind being somewhat clear.
So, take our conversation as you may.
Me, I liked meeting you.
I wish you a beautiful life until we virtually meet again.
May at least one of your prairs come true.
-You seem like my ex girlfriend.
That is just the feeling I get. I was with her for 3 years. She made in general my life miserable. But from this I have learned much, and most of all I have helped her much. We broke because there was nothing more to help her with. Before she was totally un-sure of herself, her life, no confidence, no guts, locked inside, kind of broken hearted …and when She was on her feet, ready to face the world with her head high, I made the relation break.
All was painful to me but rewarding inside.
-So, take this as you will. If you take me as crazy - YES !. Because I just want to make this world better.
I still think you’re being vague… Your wording at the beginning implies there was an issue or two of mine you wanted to help with or something and I just would like to know what those are. I don’t blindly follow people, and no offense, its not you, but I don’t trust people as easily as you seem to.
And you don’t even know me, I could be the worst kind of friend. I can be a total bitch. And its hard not to assume you have an agenda, too many offers of friendship that went another way I’m afraid.
…World is a strange place…. ..a spider bite… can lead.. to : maybe a trip to the Moon.. or a dream come true… or the End of the World.
-I do not have any agenda. I know it seems so. But I really like from time to time to do crazy things. As crazier the better. That is why I’m into downhill.
So, for now you can leave the guessing aside, because there is nothing to guess that like you say : I’ll probably tell you.
-How about a new friend ? Just someone from another end of the Earth, to talk anything, u2me, me2u, and just help our strange and complicated lives be better.
What saith thou? :)
Yes, but I first came here as a result of a spider bite and thus was addicted. Spider bite is gone now.
And I wasn’t trying to imply you had an agenda, I was just curious.
I’m just really confused what you’re so afraid to say that I need help with. I have plenty of problems I’ve talked about on here before, but I’m really not sure what you’re referring to. Some of them I don’t know if you’d be the best candidate to help with… no offense intended, you can’t help that. I’m a pretty candid person, I’ll probably tell you anything you ask me to, but you have to ask.
‘You need help, that is clear.’
I’m a little confused by that… you’re being a tad vague. And honestly I’d prefer if you guessed. If you’re worried about insulting me or something, its rather hard to do, so give it a shot. And you never answered the ‘are you male or female’ question, if you don’t mind my asking.
-I do not know your life so good as to point out a certain aspect. I may guess, but i’d rather not at this point.
-You sure need Help, that is clear. Plus I do not think there is one person on this planet who really does not need any help at all.
-I do not have to help you. This is just a random event. I just chose you randomly. I can back off any time if only you want so.
I’m not sure either… but.. let’s say : …there was a tree… at the edge of the road.. an ant fell of the tree… fell in the eye of a biker passing by… the biker shook the ant off.. but went off the road… crashed into a gas station… everybody was ok.. but the station exploded… sending nails into the air fast… one nail hit a small plain passing by… the plain was fine, until it went into a storm and the pilot realized that one of the avionics was wrong.. they did not know where they were located because of the nail that pierced the wing with the Nav computer… they flew blind… until they they almost hit the Air One with the president…. President who was just changing the codes of the Nukes suit-case… Air One made a sharp turn.. the Prez pushed the Red button… and Half of the Globe was NUKED ! .. because of a dizzy ant ! … so.. who knows??? I may help !!
maybe, but so far, none of them have. And I’m not going to sit around and wait on them to when its my problem to deal with, nobody elses. And I don’t believe in luck or chance.
Can you just tell me what you were talking about? You’re not really making any of my problems go away any faster so you might as well.
…no seriously…what are you talking about? And yes, I have plenty of my own worries and problems, and forgetting them hasn’t really ever helped me before. They’re mine to solve, who else will if not me?