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Ttyl.

I gtg. Email me sometime Courtney. I think I’d like to talk to you more. Later.

I really do want help. Just, I feel like no one understands. Every time I try to get help, I just end up feeling worse.

I was, but i think I scared them off. Last time I saw one, I flipped out because someone insulted my family in the “group room” and, I dunno.

3 mental institutions, none of them helped. All that happened is that I feel like I left worse than I went in. So I’ve tried to get help, and it never worked.

I have self harmed. Quite a few times might I add.

I dunno, my parents never understand anymore. Doctors just piss me off. Yes I’ve self harmed, cutting, burning, pill popping, hanging, I’ve done alot.

True, and I am 18, the pain could be physical or emotional. It is one of the many things I hate about myself. Hell, I actually miss the feeling of something cutting into my skin. What is that?!

One problem, if I get admitted, I can’t go into the Navy like I wish to.

My blackouts happen when I am under extreme amounts of stress. Also when I am enduring extreme pain. Rarely songs can trigger them as well. The reason I fear for the lives I mentioned is because when I blacked out, They said I tried to strangle them. Also I was trying to kill myself during one.