snowflake048's shout trail with orangefoot - Help.com

i am good. my friend and me are good. it hasnt gone beyond friendship and although it bums me out, i am glad to have her as a friend. im in my senior year in highschool, so im just trying to make the best of things. im hoping to go to UCSD. i think she will apply there too. i dont know if i would want to dorm or share a condo with her though. on one hand, i would really love having her around, but on the other, i dont want to be around her all the time so that she can just be breaking my heart by talking about cute boys or even starting to date them. but lately i feel more independent =). im really excited for college. overall, ive mainly got a lot of mixed thoughts when it comes to stuff dealing with my friend. but its cool. im making it day by day. =)what about you? why so overwhelmed? i hope things are better for you now.

hi! i’m sorry it’s been so long, but i’ve been totally overwhelmed.
how are you?

hi how have you been? i havnt really gone on this site for a while. but still, i miss it. how have things been for you lately? =)

Hello! I’m sorry to leave with such short notice, but you can’t really help something like that. I’m alright, I just need a few days to get the sleep I need and recover emotionally. Thank you for your concern < 3

im real sorry bout what happened. =/ … im not so good with words when it comes to this kind of stuff.. i dont know the right things to say… but i hope things get better in time for you.

haha wow.. thats soo cool. =D we do have plenty in common. hehe

I just read your reply on Sansceriph’s who are you post…we have so much in common! Haha for as much as we’ve talked I can’t believe we didn’t notice this.
My parents divorced when I was seven too, I lived with my mom and stepdad until I graduated college. I love to sing, my favorite color is green and I think Michelle is an awesomeee name. Weeee! How cool is this??

hii =)
well its been good. summer started and so i dont see her as much but this past day that i did see her we had a good time (it was school related stuff) but i think we should hang out somewhere else just for the heck of it. ill talk to her about it later. summer vacations just started, so theres still more to come.
i dont know if this is getting anywhere but it is kinda fun when she is flirty. haha.. its cool cuz at least now she knows how i feel and she still goes along with it sometimes. but i also dont wanna push it either. but its cool.
i really gotta thank you for like helping me out. like siriously… the first time that you mentioned about me telling her… i was really unsure i would do it.. i would see myself doing it one day but i saw it so distant. and like now, i think back and im so happy i came through and told her. i can be honest and dont have to fake smiles with her. i can be me. and i really thank you for your support. and i really love when you told me “Don’t worry about how she feels for someone else, all that matters is how she feels for you.” it really helped me. and i dont feel as jealous. it may be really obvious words… but when i start to feel down about her and some other guy, i just think what you said and it makes me feel way better. it was really good advice. =) but yea… how about you? thats cool that you moved. its different i bet. how are things going for ya now? =)

Hellllo! I’m sorry it’s been so long, but I just moved and I’m still getting settled in (which takes a lot more time then I had anticipated). Update me, how ya been?

woohoo! No more school! I just graduated so I’m off for quite a long while, until I got back for a master’s. But that’s only if you call getting a job ‘being off’
I just moved across the country, so things have been insanely busy!

my weekend has been good.. still letting things flow i guess… =)
and im not worrying about how she may feel towards someone else..hehe.
its alright. school is almost out. we will spend summer together. that should be fun. and you?

Hello! How was your weekend darling? What’s new?

anytime :O)

You totally nailed it though, just let it flow, you’re exactly right.

haha it drives me nuts when I send them to myself! I always click on the Shout-trail link now so that I can’t do it no matter what hehe :O)

lol.. thanks =)
i love your advise. it gave me a little confidence boost which i really need. i will take your advise. thanks, you have given me something new to look forward to. ill try to clear things up too.. but im in no hurry.. ill let things flow for now at this point. thank you again for being there for me. =)

lol.. and i did it again. i sent this to myself..

Well listen, you did everything that you could do. You should feel content about that even though the ball is in her court. Enjoy this, now she has to figure out what to do and you don’t. There would be nothing wrong with asking her to tell you how she felt. Maybe you could send her a message and tell her something along the lines of ‘It really took a lot of nerve for me to say what I did and I’d really like to know how you feel about all this’. The beauty of saying what’s on your mind comes from the peace you achieve by getting the thoughts out of your head and into someone else’s. I know that it’s very very difficult because even with all of that, you never know how they will feel. Don’t worry about how she feels for someone else, all that matters is how she feels for you. I still think you should be incredibly proud of yourself for doing what you did. It took a lot of strength and courage. Not many people would have taken the risk and that makes you extraordinary. Don’t let that feeling wear off.

and don’t ever worry about typing me something long :O)

yeaa… sort of… i dunno. i think things between us are a bit different. like she is no longer flirty… but im not so sure about all this yet. i still need maybe a bit more days to see…i dont know what to do next though… i feel like im stuck. i feel like ive given it my all and now its up to her, but i dont think it will go farther… and now whats bugging me is that she never told me how she felt. but i think she likes someone… but im not sure.. and she posts songs like “what is a man to do” by usher on her buddy info.. and the lyrics that she writes out from the song get me all confused.. but maybe im just thinking too much… but then she always is available when this one guy is available for chatting too and when he leaves she also leaves… kinda reminds me of me and how i am with her… i really do think i over think stuff but still… im kinda feel like whatever right now… i dont know what to do next… i waited so long for the day to tell her i love her and now im stuck. sorry.. this is long.. but i really appreciate that you were concerned for me. =)

Is everything still going well for ya? I hope you’re still smiling :O)

oh and btw, your last post that you made… it was quite inspiring. =D that helped me plenty. i kept thinking to myself: “life is short.. why not go for it?”. it was great advice at great timing. =)

hahah thanks… unfortunately the peaceful sleep will have to hold.. haha (homework tonight!).. i procastinated so i got a bunch… haha but im still too happy right now like to be complaining. =D but yea, i will sleep more peacefully from now on. hehe.

omg that’s so wonderful! I couldn’t be more proud of you! I hope that you are having the most peaceful night sleep ever, because you’ve certainly earned it. woohoo! Go you!! :O)

hi there!=)
guess what? i told her today! i told my best friend about how i feel towards her…i did it through a letter and she took it pretty well.. .im so happy that i told her.. its like a huge load off my chest. thank you soo much for your support =D

Oooo! GOOD LUCK!! I know that you’ll be so happy with yourself when you do and I wish you the best! Please let me know what happens, I’ll be anxiously waiting.
:O)

i know youre not signed on. but i just wanted to say that i think im gonna tell her soon. wish me luck. :] i hope i dont back down from this one.

=D

I’m always around so don’t hesitate to ask anything. If she’s a true friend and she accepted you for who you are then you’re truly blessed. Finding someone who really gets you is so amazing. Kudos for making great choices. Keep me posted! haha I’ll check in if you don’t :O)

lol… i accidently sent this shout to myself…
haha.. thanks =)
i know i will do it. ill build the guts..lol. this website is quiet helpful because of peoples like you. it helped encourage me to come out to her in the first place, when i told her i was bi. fortunately, she is a true friend and accepted me the way i am. the next big step would be telling her my feelings. thanks for your support. haha =)and thats awesome that everything is going well for you =)

Oh it’s going well, busy, but well.

Maybe if you do it right before school’s over it would be best. This way in case something does go wrong you have all summer. The only problem with that is it’s due or die…no chickening out. Just a suggestion though, do it whenever you feel ready. You’ll be so happy with yourself once you do it and you seem very nice, I can’t imagine why she’d say no :O)

nope… didnt tell her yet…i will though, for sure before highschool is done. im a junior right now and next year might be our last year together (unless we rent a condo together in college). i need to build up my confidence for now. there are those up and down days.. like where sometimes it seems like i might have a chance and others it seems so distant. i think its getting a bit easier each day though. =) thanks for asking. hows it going for you?

Any new updates? Did you tell her??

I hope all is well :O)