bookworm16's shout trail with Vyki - Help.com

Its getting better thanks, just stressful x

It’s ok.
Is everything going ok for you now?
x

Hi, sorry i have dropped off radar, had some big stuff goin on so im not much help to other people but I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and hope you are ok. V x

is that really fine, or you don’t want me to pry fine?
I will have to pick them up anyway, if I go over she will just pull the rack on herself so I will just let her enjoy it for a bit then bung her in bed, I am a baaad mum lol

I’m fine.
How are you?
If you ignore them pulling them off you’ll only have to put every single one back on again.

Hi, how are you today?
I have been run ragged by the kids going nuts, my youngest is currently stood at the CD rack pulling them all off one by one but I have decided to pretend not to see :) they are funny little nutters!

I’m usually quite a good ill person and just keep going, this one knocked me sideways though. Am glad that you are ok. Have you been busy?

Haha, that’s always the way. You’re ill and you feel sorry for yourself.
I’m ok.

Hi, sorry was on the phone. I am ok, have had a bug this week so have been feeling sorry for myself lol
How are you?

Hey, are you ok?

You don’t need to be worried :)

Hi, I hope you are feeling a bit better about yourself. Am trying not to crowd you but am worried about you. x

If you wish.

Do you want me to talk to you on there instead so it is private?

Yes.

I’ve thought that loads of times and every time I have been proved wrong. Are you on msn at the moment?

Because I’m fed up of fighting, I don’t want to and I can’t fight anymore. Giving up is so much easier.

I want to hear whatever you want to say.
Why do you want to give up?

Buying gloves for somebody else is allowed.
Tell you whatever I like … like I am really so close to just giving up completely? Is that what you wanted to hear?

No I went to buy the baby some gloves and spent a tenner :s
You can tell me whatever you like you know, if you look through my posts and replies all m,y stuff is out there for everybody to see so i am not exactly in a position to think bad of anybody.

I’m really not trying. Have you stayed out of the shope out of interest? I’m not doing just fine.

hey you are still trying, if you weren’t you wouldn’t have told me you felt bad you would have said you were ok and asked if i had stayed out of the shops. Just ease up on yourself and keep going, you are doing just fine I promise

haha, change that to ‘did’ seem to be making a really good effort. I’ve just given up right now.

You will get through all this you know. I don’t know what ‘this’ is for you but it will get easier and you seem to be making a really good effort to push yourself into getting better

Yeah, maybe, maybe not

I can totally understand you being worried about it though, I used to be the same but looking back I don’t think anybody saw the things about me that I thought they did

Not yet … but people are starting to wonder why I’m not in lessons, and people have started mentioning things that have just put me on edge. I know they are purely coincidence but still.

Has anybody at school said anything to you about it?

They will know. It’s really quite obvious, and explains why I’m not in lessons sometimes.
I know I could say that but I’d still feel bad for saying it. As you can probably tell, I worry way too much.

If you see her at school nobody will have any idea why as school counsellors do all sorts of things.
Just say to her I’m sorry but please don’t feel pity or sympathy for me as it just makes me feel worse. It’s not rude as long as you say it nicely, she will understand.

I’m not the type of person that just says that to people. I feel rude. I see her at school.

Tell her that then and if she is professional she will turn the pity off. Seeing a counsellor is quite common now and people never know what it is for. What kind of place do you see her at?

No, but people can still see me going to her. I know that she can help me, but she said that ‘her heart goes out to me’ and I don’t want pity or sympathy.

A counsellor can’t tell anybody anything unless there are really serious circumstances so don’t worry too much. It is a good thing that she can understand you, it means she is good at her job and she will be able to help you better

Exactly, and at the minute all I’m doing is feeling worse because I’m worrying about what she’ll find out, and then worrying that someone will find out and then worrying I’ll fail my exams and just in general feeling really really bad.

They have been trained to be scarily right but I understand what you mean I think. it is difficult when somebody seems to see into you, especially if it is stuff you have been hiding.

Things went fine with the counsellor, but she was so scarily right that it just freaked me out and things have kind of gone downhill from there. I can’t get over it.

Do you want to talk about how you are feeling or should I leave it? Did it go ok with your counsellor?

No.

Have you hurt yourself?

I don’t know, I’m just feeling very very bad.

What is making you feel bad?

Thanks :)

And not feeling any better than earlier unfortunately.

http://socialhelpsite.ning.com/

This is that site i just emailed about

Will stay logged in here too in case you want to talk, I hope you are feeling better than earlier

Hi, how’re you? Have you named your guinea pig yet?

Haha, well done for making your resolution last! It’s lasted longer than a few of mine. I’m ok-ish thanks. You?

I have finally started on the deep clean on my house, it is looking bigger already and this is the longest a resolution has ever lasted! How are you doing?

Haha, running out of money is a good reason to stop. I don’t see my counsellor until Monday so I can’t mention anything until then … but I don’t know whether I will anyway.

Hi! I’m good, enjoying my good mood that I get after I have had a bad week. I only went shopping once and now I have quit as I’m nearly out of money lol. How are you doing? Have you mentioned anything to your counsellor yet or is it still uncomfortable? Vyki x

Hi! How are you? Been shopping lately? :P