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• Is starting a new life without your wife and kids really worth it? posted (2 years, 4 months) ago
  I think my wife is about to leave me and I don’t think I want to try and live without her or …

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• Is starting a new life without your wife and kids really worth it?
  

  Ok..the hour grows near for me to have to climb back into the truck and go to work. I am so scared of what will be happening at home while I’m gone.
  I put a generic keystroke logger on her computer so I will be able to see everything she types on it when I get home. (I can’t see what others say to her though; I did mention that it was a generic logger) My nerves are a wreck. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. The stress of all this has made me phyiscally ill; not just pain in my gut, but fever, chest pains, nose bleeds, and other problems.
  I am wanting so much to believe her when she says he is gone, but I trusted her before and now look at us.
  The uncertainty and suspense of what I might find when I get back is almost to much to handle. And if I do find out that she is still involved with him or someonelse then I know that I will not be able to handle it. I am on the vurge of a complete and total panic attack and mental breakdown.
  I’m sorry if it seems like I’m just rambling on and on, but I have never felt so scared and alone in my life and it is hurting me so much. It does feel good to come here and vent a lil, but the relief is only minor and temporary.
  - written 2 years, 4 months ago

• hello there, I guess I need help in understanding why my wife takes me and everything I do for granted !
  

  I don’t know enoug about your situation to give you any real help, but I’ll share 1 of my mistakes with you.
  I work hard and try to do everything I can do to please my wife and all I got in return was, “I need a message.”, “Wanna go to Doctor’s with me?”, (4 kids all in an office for upto 2-3 hrs; can u imagine.) And many more lil task that I, at the time, thought were petty. I told myself, “If she would just show that she loves me and needs me then I would be glad to help her with this petty stuff.”
  My mistake was not realizing that this small task and favors she was asking me to do was how she was showing me that she needed me. Not just for me to “pay” for the family and be home for when they return from the store or Dr’s office.
  The point is, maybe she is showing you that she needs you and appreciates you, but in a way that you can not understand and see yet. I would advise you to not make this same mistake. My marriage of 14 yrs is on the rocks right now because I failed to see her need for me “the way it is”, not “the way I think she should.”
  Good luck and I will pray for you.
  - written 2 years, 4 months ago

• Is starting a new life without your wife and kids really worth it?
  

  Mel…just to clarify the poker is play money, not real money.
  - written 2 years, 4 months ago

• Is starting a new life without your wife and kids really worth it?
  

  thanks courtybuuble and all. I’m very tired now though so I’m gonna try to get some sleep.
  - written 2 years, 4 months ago

• Is starting a new life without your wife and kids really worth it?
  

  I had a job lined up where I could be home every night, weekend, and holiday. The only problem was it would not have paid enough to pay our bills.
  Looking at the price I’m paying now, that job would have been a lot better for my marriage if not for the bills.
  Can I barrow a time machine so I can go back and take that job…lol…owwww don’t make me laugh; my guts still hurt.
  I told her that I would quit driving the truck immediately, but she said that we couldn’t afford for me to quit. I told her that I would pick up pop cans from the side of the road and she just snickered and jokingly said yeah.
  I think you are right though; My job is a big problem for our marriage, but Finding another one that wil pay the bills is easier said than done.
  - written 2 years, 4 months ago

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