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I will be your first shout. I still have not forgotten for one hour your sad chilling story. I never told you I went thorough something similar (I speak with no intent to minimize the loss you faced) with a good friend. I ignored her as well it was too much to face or think about, she was not succesful with the suicide, but I carry this forever. I know it is tough. I am never one to pull the go see a professional card, but from what you are saying you are going through-as well as the gaps I can fill in for myself - have you considered that you may be suffering from Post tramatic stress disorder? (PTSD) This diagnosis was first creted for vicims of war, but anyone who has been through trama can have the same series of horrible symptoms. Google this and see what you get. Sometimes knowing the problem, can bring about relief in itself. You can get through this. You have been suffering and punishing yourself for too long. Take care.